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ss501 东方神奇 inft ze:a

2011-07-11T17:46:00.000+08:00

Jump jump jump!

Counting from today, its officially 105 days till Os.

And im glad to say that I've been doing alot for myself.
Prelim2 is over, gotten a few papers back and some to feel proud of.
For a week already, I removed Echofon and Tumblr apps from my phone.
There's little reason for me to be distracted anymore.

Probably the only thing, is my weight.
And health issues.
Hope I'll have them settled asap, and start to love myself.

I want to go Ikea soon and get that board for myself.
The things-i-want-accomplish-in-this-life board, it'll be a good motivation for myself.

☺

Was reading pri sch friends' blogs, realised some of them are kpop-fans as well.
But what was the 1 common thing among them?
They stan 1 group only.

I always've asked myself to stop liking so many groups, focus on one.
Of course I'll choose SS501 as my #1 without hesitation,
But i cant bear to abandon the rest.

As much as i like x-5, block b and all, I know they dont match up to the rest.
Its really tvxq, ifnt and ze:a i cant bear to leave.
Is it alright to be loving 4 groups?
At least to me, it is. ♥♥♥♥

2011-06-10T14:49:00.003+08:00

╰ pearl green ocean ♧ ╮
ｔｒｉｐℓｅｓ → ot5별✩ i love a kid called ⓗⓨⓢ♡

△ tvxq inft ze:a x5 » unnie @hyunyoung_c ♥
민달팽이 (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ♥ icon©fishyo

Cant believe im really doing this.
hiatus from twitter from now till end of Os.

With an l1r5 of currently 32?
I have all reasons to be working hard x1000

Sighs, all's gonna be worth it!

2011-05-14T18:55:00.003+08:00

3 months since I last blogged.
This place sure holds a lot of meaning for me.
Glad to say I've successfully had a change of heart, emotions in the past few weeks.

But of course, for there to be change, some things must've happened.

➝ The whole thing with inf9.

Yeah, those who are close to me would've known what happened.
And i dont want to keep backtracking, keep reminding myself of it.
I want to forget it, and live my life a whole life better.
But all the crying, ranting, shouting even, with rab and fatin throughout the whole time, i guess it really made our friendship stronger.
And sam's forever there for me too, willing to listen to my troubles :')
I love and cherish these unnies even more than ever.

Was reading my past posts, i was really close with them.
But i guess its only what i felt.
A pity still ~

The posting of the quitting thing didnt change me.
Its when i made that comeback against them.
In that split second, i realised that i stood up for myself.
And the whole burden of unhappiness on my heart was lifted.

Guess it wasnt a bundle of hurt, but honestly, fear.
Scared of those girls.
Of how they could be like this to me.
Or simply, whatever they were doing.
That was what caused my inability to walk out of depression.

But ever since i left, im able to smile now.
Seriously, i smile so so much more nowadays.
I laugh at more stuff, steps taken are lighter and happier too.
Even with things like studies, im able to find joy in.
All I can say is, i've become a real happy girl now ☺

ღ

Its been my midyears aka prelims1 this past week.
5th may start, currently in the mid of it.
Ending in 4 papers, 5 days time!! \o/

I've been studying every single day after school since the 3rd?
Late late last minute chionging but i guess it was worth it.
Daily visits to airport/starbucks sitting there for hours and just cramming everything i read into my head. But at least i wasnt alone :)
Yes, its been really really tiring. All the migraines/headspins..
I keep wanting to give up, to tell myself it doesnt matter, but i hold on!
I see it as, i work harder now - less to prepare for Os.
I get to recognise my weaknesses and areas requiring improvement now.
Better early than late!! ;D

After this period, no i wont just go back slacking and all again.
I will try and continue the revising practice every day, but less stress/hard on myself ;)

Lies.

2011-02-26T12:41:00.003+08:00

Isit my fault if i were to say, my smile here wasnt genuine?
I didnt want to be a photobomb, so I smiled.
But at the same time, it has become a natural thing for me already.
This facade...

I really miss this.
So so much.
My batch from 2009.
Where have you girls went?
Can 2 years really be so much of a change?
I really dont want to know anymore..

And would you all even believe,
If i said this was one of my most memorable birthdays ever?
I doubt anyone even cares.

I often ask myself,
Why i changed so so much from primary school times.
Is it really because of the people?
Or have i just slowly become a person with even lower self-esteem.
I cant find any part of myself to be proud of anymore.
Like I said, i must learn to love myself, before i can love others.
I miss so much things, and so many people.

My best friends from primary school.
Who stood by me throughout everything.
And loved me for who I am.
I miss you girls ;~;

My life.
Its full of frustrations, and disappointments.
One day it'll all become too much and I'll jump haha.
Let's seeeee what would be a more AA death.
Window or train tracks?
^^

The only way I see that im able to distract myself from all these things..
Is to be a studious nerd.
I've been doing all my homework way way way early,
Revising shit i never thought i would even touch.
Since i cant do well as a person,
I shall do well as a student.
At least i'll earn more money in the future?

& i cannot describe how much this picture has affected me.
It kinda speaks into my soul.
I cried my eyes out h2h2 with my sister yesterday,
I really dont want to be this denise anymore.
I want to impress,
I want to fascinate.
Call this a fetish or narcissist side of myself.
But its something i really really want.
I might just push myself to the very edge trying to achieve all this.
Achieve what you might ask?
A 20kg weight loss.
Preferably by june'11
Latest by dec'11.
Watch me change~~~~

Isnt all this amusing?
I have much confidence,
but its easily broken down by something so minor like, f r i e n d s.
My life is a joke.
It really is.
OTL

Rilakkuma

2011-02-24T22:22:00.001+08:00

cr: Tumblr

24021987
Happy birthday dearest center, kyujong ♥
You and SS501 really mean the world to me.

I really am.
Tired of all these emotional setbacks.
Its like, nobody even noticed my change in personality.
I used to smile and laugh, without any reason at all.
I loved the feeling of being in a batch, 19 strong.
But did i ever completely put down everything concerning the conflict?
Im sorry, no.

I was the one who got hurt.
And also the one who initiated the reunion.
I cry for my batchmates.
Who cries for me?

I cant seem to remember guides' thinking day the same way anymore.
It may seem like careless words, said without second thought.
But does anyone ever think about its consequences?
Or would a "Oops i was just joking" make things better?
No it wont.
Call me anal or whatever, I really expected alot more warmth for my batch.
Than what's happening nowadays.
My best friend was stolen from me,
I accepted the fact and lived on.
My sisters made wrongful judgements about me,
I wanted death, wanted an escape.
But I didnt, because some ppl held on to me.
I really thought that after that, i wouldnt be dispensable no more.
But I guess Im just, terribly wrong.

Quoted from Robiaatul@blogspot,

Hello. I know I'm stupid to put my love on an idol. But have anyone thought that, loving an idol is so much easier than loving someone who will reject/hurt/make use of your feeling? At least when you love someone who doesn't know you exist, there's no chance he can hurt you like how some jerks does. At least he won't play with your feelings and he can make you happy without knowing that you're happy because of him. Its because he doesn't know you exist. Doesn't know you love him wholeheartedly. Its a very good way to escape from hurt and love this way, isn't it? Well, I think it is. Maybe some people don't agree with me, because they might find it stupid. But, I think this way, is the best way to escape from reality. I'd rather stay in a world that doesn't exist than facing reality that sucks so much. It hurts a lot. Why suffer when you can choose to at least escape from reality.

I agree, sfm.

Im in love with my best friend.
A one-sided love that's been going on for 2 years already.
And I know I will soon give up.
Because its either that, or I continue on with this unrequited love.
And if you ask me to choose between being loved or to love,
I'd rather be loved.

Young saeng may never know my name,
I wont ever hear him calling my name either.
But he'll never hurt me.
Because he doesnt know me.
And for me, thats enough already.

2011-02-21T21:12:00.000+08:00

And yeah im back to blogging.
I love this place so much.
Its just me, and my keyboard.
Okay and maybe also plus some emotions.

Sometimes too much?
I dont know.

I always feel really sorry,
I didnt prepare/make anything for anyone on vday.
And yet, I received alot of love both from ze:a fam & inf9. ):
Sorry girls, i'd make it up to you all soon.

These few days has honestly been, very very tough for me.

School is just bombarding with tests and more.
While im trying my best to fit in, I also try to keep up with lessons.
I admit I've never been the smart sort, to absorb all taught.
I need practice and alot of exposure.
Probably the only reason why I did well for psle.

Family, i dont know what to say..
Ever since what happened with dad,
I can say this family is rather dysfunctional.
And i only feel like a hypocrite.
Because im fine on both sides, still getting love from dad too..
But not for what I hear when he talks about my other siblings.
This is, really not what I wanted.

Friends, in school i sometimes really just feel like running away.
I keep asking myself the same questions over.
Why are some guys such jerks?
Why do they get to determine who's "pretty" and who's not?
And what did I do to deserve ostracism, and nonacceptance from the majority.
Sadly enough, it is boys that im talking about.
I hate it that boys see me as, ugly/nerd/pig/emo (?)
I mean, why some girls get better treatment, but not me.
I dont yearn to be an exception, only to be part of the crowd.

To me, there's no difference for girl/boy friends.
We are all supposed to live together in harmony.
Nobody, unless most worthy, should be given the right to determine others fate.
But it seems like im the one and only one that thinks this way..

Also possibly another reason why I shun facebook.
I dont find any trace of happiness there.
Its not like twitter.
Not anything like twitter.

I have to admit one thing though,
I sometimes do think im depressed.

I cry all too easily.
Am most of the time thinking negative thoughts.
When problems do arise, I look towards the window as the perfect solution.
I cry myself to sleep,
Only to realise im still alive in this unfair world the next morning.
I sigh too much.
Really all too much.
And i dont love myself.
To be honest, I hate myself.
I look in the mirror or any reflection, and see an ugly girl.
Someone that strikes questions in me like,
"Is that...... really me?"
"How do i live looking someone like that?"
And things just complicate themselves when i think about other girls.
Or to be specifics, girl group girls.
We are all of the same breed, women of this world.
Why can they earn the respect, idolization and love from others.
And I cannot?
Why are they able to strut with such confidence, proud of how they look.
And I seem to only be able to hang my head ?
I shouldnt go on or .. I wont stop.

/laughs amusing isnt it?

So so much things go through my head at any one time.
Yet im an unaccomplished, forgetful, and slack girl who's short fat and despised.
Yay.

I want to live the day I get compliments from the people I respect.
To hear things like,
"Girl you're pretty"
"You changed alot since secondary school"
"Can i go to you if i have questions about this?"
Call me weird, but these are what I hope for.
And i always tell myself, I must work towards getting them.

I pray so so hard every single day,
A miracle will befall upon my family.
We will finally be out of the financial debts we have been in for the past 5-7 years?
Its been as long as I remember.
We will have the time to go out together as a family, overseas or anything like that.
I can shop for clothes, accessories and make-up, w/ my mum and sister.
And maybe visit manicure/facial places together.
To decorate my own room, with my own macbook, dslr and wardrobe.
To experience a love I am proud of myself,
And earn the confirmation from everyone I know.
That me, denise, has done well with my life.

But why.. does that dream seem so far?
Way too far to be within my reach.

I've already crushed my own dreams of being a pilot.
And walked right into a broken first love.
I dont know what else I can do to make my life any worser that it already is.

People talk about inner beauty, not outer beauty.
But what matters, when Im not even granted the chance, to do anything at all..
My head's always feeling like its about to explode.
And my heart just is ....... empty.

What am i supposed to do?

I'm holding back the tears
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가깝진않고 멀지않은 곳에
다른 내가 서있죠 난 울지 않아요

2011-01-28T22:43:00.004+08:00

Today is... interesting?

I always told myself that kpop+school wont mix because i will hurt others.
And yes its true.

I finally told ruxin off for being a fan.
Only because she asked me about tomorrow.
She doesnt know RITS, fanpack, where to go when to go.
She told me "Isnt it like watching a movie? Can i bring food in there?"
I was s p e e c h l e s s .
And whenever i used the fact that there's alot of kyuhyun stans out there,
she would like be unhappy or give me a :/ face.
I honestly , cannot stand such people.

I pretty much told her off for being ignorant.
She asked me how i keep myself updated.
If i had some "secret commuinity" i wasnt telling anyone of.
If twitter is, then yes?
As angry as i was,
I also learned alot from this.

I hurt people unintentionally.
I hurt people I love, with things I love.
This isnt how kpop is supposed to be like.
How come I can when im with ze:a fam & inf9.
But not when Im in school.
I really dont get it.

Anyway, tomorrow is super show 3.
yes, fucking hell
SUPER SHOW 3 IN SINGAPORE
/screams

Let's hope i dont die.
Toodles ~

2010-12-24T20:31:00.002+08:00

2011 is so..
full of awesome things.
I swear.

110105 homin's comeback.
infinite's comeback.
jungminnie album :D

110129 Super Show 3.
110130 Once more of SS3 <3

february we have ze:a bbs' comeback.

& god knows when my SS501 hubbies' will pop out for comebacks.
Be it solo or as fiveeeee.

Everyone tells me o levels aint much.
I also think they're nothing much!
I can pwn it i swear haha.

Yeap, life's good (:

2010-12-05T18:56:00.005+08:00

2010 December 4th

This date will never mean the same to me ever again.
"I'll see my God in awhile"
I swear, Hyunjoong, you are god.

I was expecting alot, and you gave me way more.
The sweetest, most genuine person I've ever seen.

You made me re-confirm my TripleS fandom.
It has always been my number one.
& it will never ever change.
Not now, not ever.

Because of you, I found it unnecessecary to see anyone else.
I missed mblaq's arrival for you.
Not that I was even minding the fact the 2pm 2am or miss a was coming.
I missed beast's arrival for you.
I didnt see the need for me to go for them.

I think because of you, I'll be able to live thhrough year 2011.
Thank you leader.

♥

2010-11-24T02:21:00.000+08:00

I cried.
Cried so much.
I wonder how much tears I've bottled up inside of me.
That something so small like a video letter can trigger it.

I've been working and working.
Every single day of my holidays after annual camp..
I've been at the stall helping out.
I know its slack, its "easy" money.
But the stress I have to face from quarreling parents.
Unreasonable customers.
Countless orders relying on my brain to remember.
& only reaching home close to 12am every day.
I really dont want to care anymore.
I want to live my holidays like how I should.

To sleep until the sun shines on my butt.
Fufill my exercises routines promised to myself.
Go out with friends.
Work at September 21 where timings are standard.
Or hotel again since its only from evening till night.
At least I will be able to LIVE A LIFE.
To do my holiday homework.
To catch up on my studies.

But if i say this..
Am i being fair to my parents who have to work everyday?
Regardless of weather health or anything.
I am only asked to help out during my holidays.

Homework can be done in the morning.
Books can be read anytime.
Friends can be seconded.

All talk and no action,
Denise is this all you are capable of?

Start of everything (?)

2010-11-10T23:19:00.002+08:00

Had O level HCLs today.
Honestly, I know I screwed my paper1 up.
It'll be a fucking MIRACLE if i dont drop out of HCL next year.
I made a few stupid mistakes in paper2 too.

But ..
That hot-looking guy from Room8 was so *O*
Haha, denise denise /facepalms

After school, went Plaza Sing to meet Siwan-hyung aka Laikei.
Waited at KFC for Sam to come.
Talked about fake fans, SS3 and all.
I wanna join in the fun of queueing.
Since i already preordered ^^
Had KFC with sam then

Collected my few days pay $88 - $25 = $63 ):
Pathetic.

Continue on another day.

All the drama

2010-11-08T23:48:00.002+08:00

Today has been a dramatic day.
First time I'm blogging with an app.

CCA was .. enjoyable (?)
I really don't know how to regard it anymore.
I don't get why all this is happening either.

Looking back at the past, it just doesnt make sense.

Oh I started on a 10-day Accutane medication again.
Let's see how it goes~

And ive been eating lesser also.
Hope my weight drops.

There's so many things I should do.
Luckily no big event I'm attending in this holidays either.
Oh yea need check entry proof.
Tmr morning find bah..
Gotta go sleep already.

Catch me on twitter.Bye ♪(´ε｀ )

2010-11-07T21:14:00.003+08:00

Im back to blogging.

No worries, I wont spam here with my fanaccounts and all.

Because they'll be kept to myself.

Or maybe it will if this blog becomes rather low-profile?

So many things have happened.

Kpop, friends, studies, guides, family.

Looking back at this blog,

I see how I've changed as a fan.

SS501 used to be my number1.

They still are, but now sidebyside with others.

ZE:A, you have changed me.

Moon Junyoung, you have changed my life.

I've started working.

Part-time at hotels as waitress.

Initially with sam, laikei, emilyn & boha.

Now just sam .

And i've got new circles of friends.

B2STSG clique + ZE:A family + Twitter BBs + InfiniteSG loves.

(Notice how all of them are not directly related to me?)
All the more, they know how to cherish me.

I failed both sciences for EOYs.

My overall L1R5 for 2010 is 28.

I am like .. wtf was i doing for the whole year?

Its my own fault.

I never studied anyway.

I dont think I need to bring this up.

But I've completely lost my passion for Guides.

The irony of things just hit me too hard,

I took it too hard on myself too.

If people ever noticed scars on my left hand,

I dont even know why I was stupid enough to torture myself.

We've been through so so so much things together.

Yet something so minor like this is strong enough to break us apart.

I dont know what else to say anymore.

I dont blame you for anything that happened.

I blame the friendship.

Many things happened for my family.

Quarrels, business and all.

But all is well I guess.

All is well.

& must be well for the rest of the decades to come.

Big things are coming up for me !

I must be strong for those who love me.

I'm just grateful to know that there still are people who love me.

They may not be in my school, or cca.

But my life matters to them.

How i wished i knew them earlier.

twitter.com/3Sdenise

2010-02-07T21:43:00.004+08:00

Hahahah decided to switch to Twitter for good. (:

I shall leave my blog open for my blogshop links.

FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER LOVES! ;D

2010-01-28T21:56:00.001+08:00

I've finally decided to update and reopen my blog.
Heheheh feels weird without it. ;X
So here goes,

26012010

Happy Birthday Selina & Ximin! ;D
First birthday spent in 3G! Another one coming next year (:
Hehe me and my 4 languaged birthday songs.

&&&,

Happy 24th Birthday Jaejoong! (:
25 years old in korea.

Hahahha okay. Better post about school ornot im gonna get scolded. :X

Turns out 3G wasnt as boring/sad as i thought it would be.
Everyone's so fun. And rather bonded. (:
We arent the class thats striving for the best everytime,
We're contented with anything presented before us.
Thought it would be a sad 2 years with the rowdy boys.
But actually, they add the undying fun & laughter into the classroom.
"Over nourised XD" & alot other crapzz.
And i think us girls just balance everything nicely. ;)

1st week of school,
I diligently did homework, brought textbooks and all.
2nd week of school,
Did some homework, left books in school.
3rd week of school,
Studied for tests and did some homework.
Books in locker.
4th week of school,
Didnt do homework, studying for geog test! ;S

Guides has been quite a change?
Secones joining, us getting more i/c stuffs.
Cant wait for the secone training camp muhahaha.
Look out for evil denise i/c. kekkeke.

Been listening to more songs these days.
Both kpop and english songs.
Wondering if i should switch to twitter anyway.
Ahhhh i better go study geog already.

and omo,

DENISE IS GOING TO SHINEE'S FANSIGN ON SUNDAY!
at least try my best to be in the lucky 1000.
With sister and qingyun. (:
Qingyun's love - Onew dubu!
Sister's love - Taemin ahhh.
MY SHINEE LOVE - KEY FOREVER (:
Saying this cos we will get 1 autograph from 1 member.
Which member? based on your luck. ;)

Lalalaa anyone interested to join us for our 4-5am reach@lotone date,
SMS ME YOHHH. XD

Love love love.
P.S Watching Wife's Temptation, SHINee's Hello Baby! (:

2010-01-04T23:06:00.002+08:00

I'm scared.
Damn.
I really am thinking about how i am going to live through the next 2 years.
Now that holidays are REALLY over and the reality of life strikes me in the head.

Finished my homework before 3 Jan.
And celebrated my sister's birthday @ 12am on 3rd Jan.
Happy birthday! Sister who's actually 11 but looks like she's 13.

First day of school was well. nothing special. as usual.
New vice principal, new teachers, new classmates.
And the fact that my class has 22 boys.
Omo how theeee.

I need chem tuition.
And am getting to learn piano.
I need to convince myself to follow a darn schedule.
Why? Cos there is guides and school and guides.
School itself is alreadyyyy ~
Went airport with xuanqi after school.
Talked nonstop. Tried to read shz.
Went home and caught Unexpected Access on tv.
Had giddy spells & wanted to puke. (as in literally)
Made me realise:
All that talk about me being able to tolerate goreee.
ARE ALL LIES.
The only reason why i told myself i could,
Was to get a common interest with you.
How stupid.

Im giving up mansxz, giving it all up.
Turning into a nerd with all the "studies are no.1" mindsets.

It's 11 already.
See you guys in school. ~

Lalalaa spamming of smses is interesting XD
~~But scary too. Hehheeh.~~

im tired, but not sleepy

2010-01-01T01:02:00.002+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR ;D
2010 is gonna be worth waiting for.
and IRONMAN 2 <3
and more kpop stalking. (:

&&

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUNGMIN! (:

Can you feel my heartbeat? I dont care eheheheheh. Lalalala shakes GEEGEEGEEGEEGEE

2009-12-29T21:27:00.002+08:00

MERRYbelatedCHRISTMAS ;D
A big THANKYOU to those who sent me christmas wishes. (:
Although i was having beancurd when i received it. XD

COUNTDOWN IN ~~FREAKING~~ TWO DAYS.
I need a replay replay replay. ~
SCHOOL REOPENS IN SIX DAYS.
Press the reset, press press the reset. ~
And what have i left?
English and dasha review.
School bag, stationarys not bought.
My pimply and reddish complexion.
Damn dark cirles from watching YB overnight.

Other than those? I'm okay. :D

Christmas was spent with a shabushabu dinner!
And grocery shopping before that.
And we bought an electric drill to finally drill my wall shelf.
And maplestory figurines got from the capsule machines. XD

KPOP LIVES ON! (even when im at a supermarket) ;D
Had yummy sukiyaki pork. Muhahahahaa.
And Daim chocolate as christmas presents.

GUIDESHASRETURNED.
Last Monday was spent on paintings and souveiners.
Had not sure what for lunch heheh.
[Or did we have lunch at all?] hmmmm.
Niwa sushi? Koreans eating at the next table?

Last Wednesday was spent on tying mini flagpoles.
Omgosh "Class results out already" alert.
DENISE IS IN CLASS 3G'10
together with mdear sec1'08 classmate Selina. (:
And eighteenchefs for lunch!
Then the jiapajingeng group walkwalk.

Yesterday was spent "icantbelieveit" dance ppl dancing Gee.
Geegeegeegee babybaby. *pukes*
And lunching at Simpang. Meepokpok.
Then while on the bus home, my music dies. D:

Haih, if you ask me? 2009 has not been a good year.
MJ dies, swine/h1n1 flu.
"Sec2 guides life was the most memorable one to me" -Cecilia ma'am.
Guess i wont ever be able to say that.
Tekan day cancelled, no orienteering with ncc, annualcamp?
And sec2 on the whole? China trip ~~postponed~~ cancelled!
And next year i only know like, 4 ppl in my class.
This antisocial me will have to make friends. (:

And the news that absolutely killskilledkillsmeagain.
My hubbies not coming singapore already. D: -cries-
Last asia tour concert perf at Bangkok on 9/february'10
Then encore concert at korea.
Nicenice yeekay ask me together go bangkok with her. XD
She go watch SNSD concert, i go find my hubbies. (:
But yeah thats impossible. -.-

And omgosh i missed the ticket sales for ftisland fanmeet. D;
Damnn no more leehongki songseunghyun & omocute minhwan.
Ahhhh but the sadness is like, ten times lesser than the fact up there.
No ft island, no hubbies. D; -crycrycry-

BUT I WILL WAIT. (:
They'll eventually come singapore one day. ;D

Lalalala off to read Animalfarm.
-just got shocked by someone's face that popped up from msn-

BANGBANGBANG

2009-12-24T01:10:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAH I LOVE MY NEW FRINGE. Bangbangbangs.
Superbangmateeeee ;D

Shall post another time since im tired now. (:

Breakout breakout !

2009-12-17T14:32:00.003+08:00

Omgosh xuanqi I need you!
I realised that I haven't touched my Chinese homework sincee..
Okay I did continue another paragraph of my bzbd. XD
But I finished both my guides scrapbook & indiv part!
*clapsclaps*

I WATCHED FINISH MINAMI SINEYO
aka You're Beautiful! (;
From the 13th-15th, chionged finish the kdrama I've been wanting to watch.
Yeekay, Rin & Cel unnies are gonna be so proud of me. XD
#1. Jeremy (Lee Hongki) is total cuteness ^^
#2. Shinwoo reminds me of BOF jihoo sunbae D:
Always the one that loves the most, but also hurt the most.
But he is super charming and princey hehheheh.
Somewhat like kyu.
[& I realised he has the same birthday as me! ;D]
#3. Taekyung looks like Gdragon when he smiles!
But he is total leeminho number 2.
Exact same goojunpyo attitude in minami also XD
Hahah don't want to like this character but his singing is wowww.
~~Unlike *ehem*Lee*coughcough*Minho XD~~
#4. Go Minyeo had 4 hot guys liking her.
She even made Jeremy cry.
Shinwoo too. D:
But Park Shin Hye really looks like Yoo Eun Hye!
Aka coffee prince & goong de girl lead.
And when she stones, BAM she looks like yesung! XD
Her singing and dancing is also proooo (;

161209 {Yesterday}
My two guy friends went overseas.
One go Aussie one go Europe.
Supposed to go out for icecream together with nut.
But I had to go school and get my damn books..
Also supposed to go out with yeekay, in the end also postponed.
So I just spent the day sleeping/helping at my dads stall.
I tell you, should have said this long ago.
Working is difficult D:
How I wish I can be Peter Pan.

I'm not sure when, but I finally pasted my posters on my wall.
Wahh should take picture. Love it mansxz!
Only left shinee poster don't have D:
I got Heaven's Postman poster! ;D

Oh yes, read from allkpop that DBSK's BreakOut will be released next year!
The song preview on YouTube already rocks.
And the album art is already out too (;
Cant wait for their comeback ;D

Sorry Sorry (remix) aka Answer version is super nice!
Everyone gets more parts to sing (;
And they had a Michael Jackson tribute performance tgt with SHINee,
Did Beat It and Bad, super nice! But don't know why some ppl didn't like it at all.

Currently @ City Hall MRT Station.
Collect my SS501 Aloha Pictorial Album!
That has finally arrived after a month.
Thinking of working at my aunt's place so can get Urman & ST01now albums (;
One day 20bucks.
Quite alot since it's only taking care of 5-7 yearolds.
But guides is starting soon D:

One sad sad thing I wanted to achieve during the dec hols, I didn't.
Outing with meridian friends.
With the current state of how we are,
Not even sure we can be called Friends.
More like, acquantainces D< Things weren't any better when we met for teachers day.

Aye enough with the sad things.
Hahah my sister bought a Teenage magazine.
Edward and Bella on cover, with leeminho poster inside.
Biggest one i've had so far.
But it will be collecting dust bunnies!
Muhahahha I just refuse to put it up.

Omgosh I love the aloha pictorial album!
Super huge book with every page pictures! ;DDDD
Lalalalahhh. And for the 1.65m tall poster, I got leader's.
Kimhyunjoonggg ;D

With this uplifted mood of mine, I shall finish my homework!
Byebyebyebye ;D

Lalalalahhh ask me out for dates! ;D

2009-12-13T19:35:00.003+08:00

1212 SS501 HONGKONG CONCERT

Wonder how the concert went...
Needless to say,
It must have been hongkong TS's happiest day ever! ;D

I'm using my phone to blog so will find and post pictures when I get home!

Since Thursday, I've been at my wai po's house.
Breakaway from the usual eat-sleep cycle.
Added fun when my confidantes are overseas or workingg.

First day (Thursday)
was spent sleeping hahahahhah.
And reading archie comics.

Second day, (Friday)
Went Johor to playyy and shopp.
Had bakkutteh breakfast there, then shop.
~~Waipo bought pirated DVD.~~
Shop and bought handphone covers.
And Epop and Colour magazine! ;D
Only because there is heavenpostman's poster XD
Had seafood dinner then drove home.

Super short (not even one night) trip hehehh.
Spent the night smsing.
And waiting for zombieland to finish downloadingg XD

Third day, (Saturday)
Highlight of that day was watching:
NEWMOON ;D
Wolfpack action hotness hahaha
Jacob black is wowwww.
Team jacob foreverrrrr (;

Today
Had breakfast @ boonlay hawker centre.
Then bathed and went to aunt's house.
Played with her 3 cats ;D
Garfield lookalike, ahmao and blackie!
As fat as lazy as orange as Garfield! X)
Then went to visit lil 3 week old Leroy.
Cuteness overload.
Made me realise how much I've grown,
And that I'm ageing D< style="font-weight:bold;">Sundown Seoul'd Out concert went.
Want go, but no money and reason to go.
But I want to go and scream for ftisland songseunghyun !
Like I told qingyun, the cutie that plays guitar (;
But better luck next timeeee.

Mini fanclub alert!
Let's go out again sometime soon. ;D

Battery dieing alreadyyy.
Oh yeah, I dreamt of Super Junior oppas on fri night.
Hahah not all of them though.
Got eunhyuk, shindong, donghae and sungmin oppa (;
WHY NO YESUNG?! D<

Hahahah I shall try dreaming about them again.
Together with 2pm hahahhahah XD

Prawns sing dance and does my homework! ♥

2009-12-09T00:14:00.002+08:00

Hyunsaeng awkward love ♥
The Hyungs of SS501. (:

Happy Birthday Samuel! 071209
Sunday 0612, Samuel's birthday celebration.

Buffet lunch @ Changi Village Hotel's Saltwater Cafe.
Didnt eat much heheh. But loved the desserts!
Tiramisu & Chocolate mousse. Sweetness hahaha.
Had fun chasing after lil 3 year old Darren.

Denise: Do you know my name?
Darren: -shakes head-
Denise: It's de-nise jie-jie. ;D
Darren: *mumbles* denishh jehjeh?
5 seconds later..
Denise: What's my name? (:
Darren: -shakes head-

CUTE LAHHH. :D

After the buffet my family went catching prawnns.
Process was shiok cos for 1nce, i managed to catch more than 12 prawns! :D
In 3 hours that is.
Total result: my catch + mom's catch + cousin's catch = 2.5kg heavy seafood!
@ 12am, went to play pool with bro, dad & uncle.
Hhahahah they dont care that im not 16 LOL.
Went to aunt's place to cook our catch.
XO prawns woooooooo.
Reached home @ 4am.

Shall upload pictures another day since im using my phone to listen to music.
Currently playing: The One I Love - Suju KRY. (:

Monday 0712, mini fanclub 1st meeting! :D

Chusohamida! Didnt mean to be lateee.
Couldnt wake up to my alarm cos of the late sleep.
Went to meet cel, mae & rinn unnies @ bugis mrt.
Mixed mae & rinn up when i tried to guess LOL.
I was worried they would be really tall cos they're like 15, 17, 18.
Then i will sad. But turns out can very chingu (friend) with them!
Mae's all siaosiao and randomm. ;D
Cel unnie's fun & talkativeee. (:
Rinn unnie's yeppeo (pretty) & looks like my age! Enviousenvious. (:
Went to TopOne KTV to sing songgs.
SUPER HAPPY GOT KOREAN SONGS! XD
~~not like kbox only got bolero and rising sun. -.-~~

Nobody gee genie kissingu mariaaaa (200pnds beauty) itsyou sorrysorry pajamaparty (suju-h) ojungbanhap mirotic summerdream hug timeless (xiah) URMAN BCOSIMSTUPID SS501 ♥

Gladglad that i can rmb full korean songs without an effort, just by listening.
So can sing nonstop. ;D
Danced sorry sorry, gee & nobodynobodybutchu *clapclap clap* with unnies. XD
K-ed from 1 to 5, 18bucks only + free flow of drinks. (:
Only bad point, toilet got incense smell. -_-

Got my MBC Collection from rinn unnie too.
AHH LOVE THE POSTER! Saengie smiling like :D
Hubbies all look wowwwww.

Had pastamania with cel & rin cos mae had to leave early.
Didnt know where to go so we all went home. LOL.
Mrt ride with cel was about hubbies + our favs. ;D
Reached home & realise te laptop was brought out. -.-
Watched my MBC with dvd player.
LOLs at the swimming parts. ♥

Outing with mini fanclub felt like when me & qingyun chatted nonstop bout SS501.
Just even better since its with different ppl who also loved SS501. ;D
Hope hope can go out together again soon, + qingyun + beatrice + chenmin!
FULL MINI FANCLUB. (:

Tuesday 0812, airport with xuanqi.

Met @ tanah merah at 1plus.
Went to t3 foodcourt & ate lunchh.
Started on my gonghan, xq continued with her baozhangduhougan (bzdhg)
Chatted about gb & gg stress.
And how sterotyping of friendships & scandals sucked. XD
Wondered how valerie would look now. (:
Thought she was coming back SG today so wanted to welcome her back. LOL
[turns out she's coming back on thursday]
Finished my gonghan! Xq continues with her bzdhg.
Actually, bzdhg only need 2 pages (800 words).
Xuanqi ended up with a 5 page long essay. LOL.
Halfway done with my bzdhg too! :D
Stopped & went home at 7:30pm.
Lalala let's go out do our dasha essay together sometime again xuanqi!

Meme bus12-ed to dte. Reached kfc @ 8:40pm.
Qingyun was working cashier, and took 10 mins to realise i was there.
Waited for her to end at 10pm since the queue didnt ever stop.
Spotted 2 cute ahbeng-ish guys with nice styled brownish hairstyles. XD
And they were making faces & playing with a lil 2 year old girl in the queue.
Cuteeee . LOL.
Finally 10pm, qingyun comes out of the counter.

Qingyun: Ahhh psps make you wait so long! You not getting anything?
Denise: Its alright. (: LOL i no money how buy.
Qingyun: Then you come find me for?
Denise: Ayee i want pass this to you! :D
*takes paper bag & shows qy the contents*
White box: Things i bought for you from thailand.
Bag of chips with Yehsung's pic: I bought for you from the Shine Korea shop.
*shows the MBC Collection DVD*
Qingyun: Omgggee it's the MBC Collectionnnn! XD
Denise: I lend to you watchh, no rush return me :D

And then i leave and go home since she had to stay and clean up.
Ahhhh i love my bfff. ;D

Reach home & chucks chinese homework aside.
Chats on msn with valerie who's in taiwan still. IMYYYY.
And cel unnie about the next FC outing! :D

Ahhhh i still need to do guides scrapbook, tds, eng & science homework.
Chinese's practically finished. WOOOOOO. ^^

Shall go youtube and watch SuJu Intimate Note all over again. ;D
Or start watching You're Beautiful. Hongki!! (:
Byeeeeee ♥

Hey Girl ~ HEYBOY

2009-12-04T00:09:00.003+08:00

His smile puts all the world's lights in shame. (:
[yunjin rmb this?] ;D
*meltsmelts ahh his dimples! meltsmelts*
"Young shimi, young shimi mehrong, young shimi. ~ XD"

Annual hike.
Sketchbook due 21st december.
Decided to do it myself since i have the pictures & am the only sec2.
*sadsad i am the only sec2 in fp still. sadsad*

Total defence silver for guides.
Group & individual!
And my group's all still overseas and probably clueless about what to do.
Plus, the fact that i already have gotten my TDS from yfc, its so -.-
Got my silver badge at least 6 months ago.

&&,

Im not sure why, i've been dreaming really weird dreams these days.
Two nights ago:

- was at some country with ancient ruins with my family.
- played mini basketball games at an arcade in Dreamlanddd?
- dad went away then me and mum went to a museum.
- drb & msc (?!?!!?!) appeared in egypt clothings!
- argueargueargue for awhile then we're suddenly on a sampan..
- i sit infront alone, TAEMIN suddenly appears sitting beside msc.
- msc starts fangirling over taemin.
-i wake up due to the shock. XD

those fellow anglicans out there, you all would know who are the two im saying.
im just worried i might appear in the papers if i spell out their names in full. ._.
eg " AHS STUDENT MAKES FUN OF TEACHERS " or wtv.

like, omgosh why did taemin appear in my dream!
summore its him during Replay aka Noona neomo yeppo times de look.
Maybe its cos i watch too many videos of star king and kanghodong loving taemin like *-*

Lastnight:

- i escape with someone (i cant rmb!) from a concentration camp.
- camp somewhat resembled ~~camp christines.~~
- end up at the edge of a short hill with alotalot ppl.
- alotalot ppl = suju, meridian ppl, ftisland. (wtf right? i also dont understand)
- lava starts flowing towards us from nowhere.
- runsrunruns up the hill, jumps onto giant marshmellow.
- rows away to safety using our legs (in the lava?!)

Wakes up and realises im all alone @ home.
*laughs to myself* hahahahahaahahh.

MSN rocks lahs.
1 desktop, 3 msn accounts online, 7 active conversations.
Timo had 4 convos, my brother had 2, i had 1. -.-
dehdehding dehdehding! nonstop replying & replies. XD
Rin unnie: "We want denise"
Cel unnie: "We demand!"
*timo and daniel starts LOL-ing*
*denise stones since she's not in reach of the keyboard*
In the end, i smsed them insteaddd. (:

Anyone want to watch New Moon?
Team jacobbbbbb!

{What have i been doing these few days?}
1. Read finish Da Sha aka THEBUILDING in 3 days.
Damned myself for reading it when i finished it.
No freaking ending.
I want to know who's the masterminddddd!

2. Continue with my TDS.
Stressing on how to explain TDS to my overseas group when they come backk.
And how to safely get 25 points when my printer aint working.
Currently got 10 points done~ :D

3. Fight for my rights to earn my own money.

Denise: "I want go work at kfc"
Dad: "No"
Denise: "Bu-.."
Dad: "Ni
mei2 bi4 yao4"
Denise: "I want to buy alot of things!"
Dad: "Get money
from me"
Denise: *mumbles to myself*
"i want photo501, mbc, 1st
story......still got suju, dbsk, shinee albums & dvds..."
Daniel: "How
much is kfc paying?"
Denise: "$3.60/hour"
Daniel: " My friend reco me one job $11/hour!"
*daniel starts his evil muhhahahahah laughter*

Hhahah how cool all start with D. (:

Yeah i am a no-lifer. No need post also know youtube pwns my holidays.
I want to watch:
You're Beautiful (Leehongki cutieee.)
Heading to the ground. (Ahhhh uknow yunhooo)
IRIS (bigdebangbang TOP)
HEAVEN'S POSTMAN (kimjaejoong oppa!)

how i wishwishwish hubbies would film dramas too. D:

I shall be a good girl & go do my TDS stuffs now.
~~or maybe watch more star king episodes!~~

&&, Neomu neomu kamsa to rin unnie! For helping me order MBC. ;D

the way to a man's heart is through his gun

2009-11-23T04:00:00.005+08:00

Hello denise tan is back from bangkok, thailand. (:
Ahhh did anyone miss me? I guess not. X)
Im still gonna blog even though i need to fall in at 8am tmr. ;D

091109 2B Class Chalet

Had fun at dte chalet, rain & barbequeing.
Gossip and lying.
Hugging :X
Ahhh im gonna miss 2B. D:
Sundowns, movies, promises.
And tonning at my house. XD

101109 Meetup

Went all the way to kovan mrt (1h 30mins MRT ride my butt numbed diao).
To pay for my idol lanyards. Hahahahah, happy Lydia. ;D

111109 Dental Appointment

Denise went to the same dentist that Anna went to.
& got braces! (: -smilesmile-
Hahahahah quite redundant and lenggg to post about this without pictures.
LOL who cares.

121109 Meetup

Went out with kohqingyunnnn.
Had to swallow yoshinoya beef cos i couldnt bite yet.
Laughed at by qingyun lol.
Went bugis street walkwalk buy clothes & presents *coughscoughs*
Super happy when i hear hubbies' LLT playing in a store.
Followed by Taegoon's Call Me & SNSD's Geeee. (:

131109 - 141109 Guides Annual Camp

My second year of annual camp.
Really hope i'll be able to attend next years' too.
3 days that made me miss my home so much.
Truthfully, i dont feel accomplished at all.
Wonder how it'd be like next year when its my batch leading.
D;

181109 - 211109 Bangkok, Thailand Trip

{The plane aka tigerairways, is not much bigger than the fokker 50 i got to have a joyride on a few months ago. (:}
But it was really memorable since it's been years since my family got to go overseas together. Heheh.
This trip was practically budget airline & hotel.
But spent alot of money on food & stuff.
Hehhehh smarrttt.And it was my sister's first time on a plane, so how talkative shewas being the whole flight lol.

{Denise . Daniel . Daphne .}
Meet the 3 youngsters of the Tan Family muhahahahha.
This was before i fell asleep heheeh.
See the resemblance in the eyes nose & lips? XD
Maybe it was because the flight was budget anyway.
I felt air sickness for the first time, without the puking part.
And omgosh air pressure- ear block & headache.
Fell asleep after takeoff.

{Our budget hotel's name was MyHotel}
Wth right?
We had free buffet breakfast every morning though.
Fried rice, noodles, hotdogs & eggs.
Exactly the same thing for 3 mornings. XD

{There were fully hot pink taxis everywhere!}
Greeen, hot pink, yellow, blue, orange.
Wow can you imagine how the traffic looked like with all the multicouloured taxis everywhere?!
And yeah, for all the 3 taxis we took at bangkok, none of the taxis' speedometer worked.
So we were displayed as going at 0km/h for the whole time. XD

{This is called a Tuktuk, actually this is the hotel's tuktuk}
I tell you the driving is more reckless than playing daytona.
Or the way my bro drives in GTA.
Every minute on a tuktuk in bangkok is clinging onto your lifeee.
Hahahaha but the wind is shiok. XD
And so is the fare they charge.
Its like 10x more the distance and 10x lesser than the fare charged by SG taxis.

{New Moon was released on 191109 in bangkok}
Omgosh wolfpack i couldnt help muself but snap a photo.
Hahhaahaha look at how hot taylor lautner is. (:
So much scoldings about me only looking at korean guys. :X
But my hubbies are anytime and everytime a hundred times hotter than taylor lautner still. XD
Sorry jacobbb. D:

{We took a boat ride that costed 1800 baht}
Which is around SGD$90 ahhh super exx for a darn boat.
Totally kena tok. D:
And the boat only stopped 1nce for a temple.
When we were supposed to stop at 4 differents places.
Fish farm, snake farm and moreeee.

{Bangkok's SimLim Square}
Satisfy all your electronic needs! XD
At ridiculously low prices! Muhahahaahah.
That was where i bought my buttons headset. :D
And saw Wonder Girls, Super Junior & SHINee's MVs being broadcasted on the laptops, teevees and all. XD

{MEGASIZE ROOTBEAR FLOAT ;D}
Had lunch at A&W restaurant.
Other than the omgosh wowwww root beer,
everything else sucked. XP
Hahhaah and their rice was placed in a bear's shape.

{Place we had dinner after buying stuffs at the huge night market}
Had dinner in total darkness.
But there was a live band singing Boom Boom Pow and EhEh. XD
And the Tom Yum soup rockkked to the max. Yowww. :D

{Bird nests hehehehhehh}
I never knew what they actually were.
The real bird's nests? Or spit from some bird.
Hmmmm but i dont care it tasted niceee and is good for my skin.\

{Bangkok's MRT.}
Surprisingly the passengers are even more courteous that singaporeans. D:
But the closing doors alert is a rude rude buzz sound. -.-
Irritating much.

{Do you see what I see? XD}
On every single magazine stand & 7eleven i come across, they are stocked with kpop magazines!
Ahhhhhhh.
About bof, dbsk, SS501hubbies, SHINee, Suju, SNSD.
But all in thai. -.-

{Patpong night bazaar bargains like wwowww}
Hehehehh bought so much souveniers, clothes, lil tuktuks. XD
Bargain and haggle the prices like crazaayhe.
My uncle asked us to not sham ourselves by admitting we're from singapore, say we're malaysians. XD

{Chatuchak weekend market. (: }
Super huge with 3k stalls.
The alley stalls had clothes and all.
Then i heard hubbies' Because Im Stupid. :D
Stoned there for it to finish and walked into another alley of shops.
And omgosh heard it againnnnn. (:
Also caught f(x)'s Chu~ playingg. do it do it chuuuu. XD

{Thailand airport}
Back here, haihhh.
Taxi-ed there for like, 1 hour.
Can see my brother in the picture? :D
Daniel, the camerman responsible for taking down memories of thailanddddd. (:
Denise, the last min last time @ thailand airport camerawoman.

{MEET HIRO NAKAMURA! XD}
See the guy in gray?
Heheheh i managed to snap a pic of him looking O.O
Hahahahah he looks like Hiro Nakamura from Heroes.
Took the same flight and stayed at the same hotel as him. (:
Helllooooo guy who constipates everytime he teleports. XD

{Our luggage's total weight count}
Hahahahahah, lucky tilllll. :D
Hit 60kg we have to pay moreee. XD

{Camwhoring with my brother who doesnt want to}
Hhahaahah dont care about the pimples!
And my brother's -.- face. ;D

{Ahhhh those lucky people!}
TWO flights to Seoul/Incheon and ONE to Osaka.
How i wish i could visit Seoul or Osaka one day. :D

{Tiger airways back in SG}
Ahhhh, back in home sweet home singapore.
Once my phone detected we're back in SG, spammed smses of all the smses ppl sent me the last 4 days. :D
And i got my nice nice kayrinne unnie to help me order SS501 MBC Collection! (:
Cant wait to meet qingyun soon. Exercise, mask and more. :D

Hahahaah really cant compare thailand to singapore.
The traffic, the air condition, the safety!
Really glad i went on the trip to bangkok.
Made me appreciate Singapore alot more. ;D

Got guides tomorrow got to go sleep alreadddy.
Nights.

2009-11-21T10:32:00.004+08:00

MUHAHHA IM BLOGGING IN BANGKOK. ;D

Im staying in a budget hotel in bangkok, suprisingly they have internet access!
But have to pay obviously.
Didnt have time to blog the last 3 days, so blogging on my last day in bangkok.

When i get home from here, which is around midnight in singapore,
I have to post bucketloads of pictures, posts about other days.
1. Class Chalet
2. Ton @ my house.
3. BRACES. :D -smilesmile-
4. Went out with kohqingyun.
5. ANNUAL CAMP. (x
6. Working at my dad's stall.
7. Bangkok trip! (:

Prices here are like dirt cheap actually.
~~can bargain like wowww, from 550 THB to 100 THB even~~
I bought buttons headphones for 380 THB, (app. SGD$16)
And i saw them in SG Popular selling at SGD$50 ++

AHHHH left 1 minute already.
Blog more when im back at home.
BYE :D

Erase those unerasable memories

2009-11-08T20:07:00.002+08:00

" Sangil chuka, Saengie oppa! ♥ " 3/11/09 12am

I was so sad i couldnt post on young saeng's birthday.

Trouble of having 1 computer and 2 other siblings. :X
Hahah, mdear heo young saeng is 23 years old already.
24 years in Korea. (:
Glad that he had the wish he made on leader's birthday fufilled.
Lucky fans could give him an early birthday celebration.
HyunSaeng scandal continues, XD

I dont really remember what i did on the 4th. Heheh.
I think i had guides.

Happy birthday joven & rongwei! 5/11/09
"Where's my wish from selina" & "Thanks."

Oh, SHINee's Jonghyun was down with swine flu,
So SuJu's Yehsung performed JH's part during their RDD perf on 6/11.
Fyi, RDD is SHINee's new song RingDingDong. ;D
Read the article and watched the performance on the 6th itself. XD
Lucky me.

Yesterday was well, another cockup (thanks to my family) day.
Didnt get my braces, like my dad promised me he would.
Didnt get to attend lil cousin's graduation concert.
Another day i just want to erase from my memories.

Today was spent doing guides stuff.
And realising its Onew down with swine flu.
JH's back, together with the rest performing RDD today.
And SuJu's Eeteuk performed Onew's parts. :D
Nicenice hyung-deul helping their dongsaengs. (:

I'm too bored yet busy.
How i wish i could go bunjee jumping now.

Reminds me again, im no longer looking forward to next year.
"There's really nothing to look forward to"
I agreee!
My 1st choice for sub com was phy/chem + geog.
And it looks like nobody i know has the same choice.
Which makes me even more realise there's nothing to look forward to next year.
Other than SS501 Asia Tour Concert. (:
(My only source of motivation left)

Denise's awaiting ordered pre-orders!
- SS501 & SuJu lanyards. [ Ordered & meeting up on tue/wed ]
- SS501 Aloha Photobook. [ I shall sms the blogshop now. ]

Shupergirl. (:

2009-10-31T20:15:00.001+08:00

Omgosh i didnt birthday-post so many ppl. :X

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HANNAHBANGBANG! [ 22nd Oct ]

♥1A08, C&T!, Superbangmates, Smschattinggg.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DADDYYY! [24th Oct]

♥ wonderful dad, BOWLING, bro's weird strike pose, gutterlovers.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY RUXINNNN! [25th Oct]

♥you this ex-hyunjoong lover!, guidesis ftwww. (:

*breathes* done! (: &&,

My hubby-oppa heoyoungsaeng's birthday is this wednesday!!!

{wonders what SS501 oppas are gonna do for otter prince's sangil!}

- Last day of school

answered ~~truthfully~~ survey
springcleaninggg tinner (spelled like that?) rocks.
huggin rachel tighttight as she was cryinggg. D:
report card & shocked to know got exact same pos. as lili and peggy!
recess with yunjinnn (i just realised its the last timeeee)
sub stream briefing, yunjin helping me decide. (:
camwhore, comfort yunjin, gloria, rachel, wenjing & claudiaa
guides, sadsadcrazysad farewell by seniors.

Wenjing my dearest FP mate for 2 years, i've become dependent on you already. With the letter you gave me, i found even more reasons to release the tears i've locked up inside of me.

Yunjin, the diet-sized bundle that added sooo much more joy to my colourless life, is leaving too. I keep telling myself: " this girl ah, no need chain her up, she'll come back for sure ". But i still am missing you. The fact that you're gone & 2009's over so fast is hitting me soso hard.

And rachel, the girl that have been loving me & allowing me to have a chance to comfort and console someone, is going too. When she cried and said, "you're not the one leaving" with her tight farewell hug, my tears were knockingggg.

Now the only thing i tell myself is, they are coming back for guides, for us.

So please dont break this last hope im holding on too. (:

!Lovestory is theme song of ahguides, sec108/sec209 ftw! (:

Nowww, for the subject combination hmmhmm.

Those taking triple science, AHNYONGGG.

Wont be same class as denisetansinnmin.

Physics & Geog. Yes physics and geog. (:

Oh yes, remember the SS501 Cartoon sneakers i bought awhile back?

I'm selling it now. D:

It's not my size, and i dont want to complain to the blogshop i bought from.

So yes im selling it! So i can either:

~~Buy new sneakers.~~
Buy SS501 Aloha Photobook (with the money earned)
Buy SS501 MBC Collection (with the money earned)

XD shout at me all you want, lalalala.

Fellow ppl drowned in hallyu wave, please recommend videos for me to watch.

I've watched all the

-SS501 (watched everything at least 5times)

-DBSK (all korean & japanese shows/programmes/performances}

-SHINee (show cuts, variety shows)

-Superjunior (left with SuJu Unbelievable Outing Show)

videos on youtube. So im bored now. D:

Went out wanting to pick THK, BABOM! rain rabbits and hamsters. -.-

Read 1/3 of shuihuzhuan already! (:

People, denise is going to get braces soon! antcipateee. XD

Stuck on the whole SS501 Rebirth albummm.

Listening over and over againnnn. ~

Oh yeah, i maybe considering learning hangeul (korean) with jia le!

@ Cambridge Institute, 10lessons $288.

Dinner time! Ahnyonggg.

POOL KBOX ~

2009-10-19T19:30:00.001+08:00

YESTERDAY :d

Instead of sleeping the whole Sunday,
I went out with bro, joe & timo. aka my brothers. (:

First, went to Tampines SAFRA to play pool.
Managed to each play 3 rounds. Wooo.
My skills improved too.

From 3 ~ 4.50pm. Then walked to mrt station.

Brothers mrt-ed with me to City Hall to pay deposit for my

SS501 Rebirth Albummmm. :D

Yayyayyayyay. Happyhappy.

"Maximum Distance, Minimum Displacement"
- Tribute to Joe Tan. XD

Marina Sq suddenly became so much further away.

It was either2 Yuki Yaki or Kbox for dinner.

But yeah kbox won in the end. Entertainment triumphs hunger.

Me looking for kpop ended up with:
DONG BANG SHIN KI. (:

(dont have my hubbies SS501, Suju or Bigbang there)

Sang Bolero - DBSK ~

There was also Rising Sun.

But my brothers wouldnt listen.

Unless it was sung by SNSD.

Wth -.-

Crazy SNSD fanguys.

Their motivation:

" Taeyeon is on the top of this flight of stairs!"

" Sunny would be there for me to hug!"

" Forget those two, YOONA will be there!"

*STARTS DANCING GEE*

Today its simply just sleeping at home.

Getting literally pranked.

Looking for the NDS that my sister brought out.

Eating dinner at 5pm.

Seeing my brothers taking 'O's this year play Metal Slug.

Ahh im tired and thirsty.

Dang you MSG. XD

Go watch on youtube:

-Voices behind the MRT

-Voice behind pikachu [*0* cute]

-Hokkien L4D

Yeah and tag. My tagboard is dyinggg. (:

Yeorobunnn, ahnyong. :D

BOOMSX

2009-10-16T22:04:00.002+08:00

SCHOOL MINI OLYMPICS GUIDES SEOUL GARDEN BOWLING

Wow im tired dammit.

But happy, super happy. (:

Proud of both c & b captain ball guides. :D

~~although we got pwned by bball.~~

we did a super good job, with me cheering like siao at the side. XD

Afterwards,

The almost 3 hours of absolutely doing nothing sucked.

-Went to library to read Beano, got chased out.

-Sat at dnt room with rachel.

-Fell asleep listenin to kpop at 2c.

-Practised foot drills for 3 mins.

-Watched yunjin do an akward zeropoint move. XD

And fall in for guides.

Cabbed with Megan to mrt station ~~secretly.~~

Had marvellous seoul garden buffet with qingyun & christine.

Saw a happyhappy -wavewave- tyanwei & zijun.

Who eventually dragged christine away.

{photos will be uploaded when i get them from qingg}

With christine gone,

the two lonely us went to Orchid Bowling. (:

Played 1 pathetic game,

But had super pro yet nicenice uncles teaching us.

They were with a young boy (who's also super pro),

Offering help when they saw how sucky our skills were. :D

GUTTERGUTTERonepinGUTTER

Walked to whitesands.

Promised myself i will buy;

SS501 Find Album,

SS501 Dejavu Album (when popular restocks)

-smiles to myself like crazzayheee-

Omgosh i've preordered SS501 Rebirth Album.

From Marshmellow blogshop. :D

Its their LATESTALBUM! (;

aka, frigging comeback album WOWWWW.

Excited denise muchhh. (:

And its the limited edition (only 10000 pieces)

+100 page diary and pictorial, + 2 posters. :D :D :D

All of you who are reading this, REJOICE WITH ME. (:

Dad wants to go for prataFATSsupperFATS.

Omgee and i cant say no.

GEEGEEGEEGEEGEE. -dancedance-

I shall go slip into a catnap. (:

No one can wake me up when im asleep anyway.

NIGHTS! :D

"I've been spending all my
Time just thinking bout you
I dont know what to do
I think I'm falling for you"

Shabangshabang, BRIGHTBRIGHT

2009-10-15T23:01:00.000+08:00

*Grabs my imaginary shades*

Dont you think everything's much brighter? :D

Wow, my last post was in september.

Miracleee.

FRIGGING EXAMS ARE OVERRRR

MY FANGIRLING CAN CONTINUE! (X

Wah, super happy.

Can officially tell everyone,

MY EOYS ARE OVERRRRR.

:D :D :D

Dont wish to reminisince about how the bliddy tests were.

~~It was okayyyy.~~

But it sucked still. XD

Sentosa was really wowwow.

First time denise actually swam in seawater.

Missed all 1a'08 ppl.

Talked with selina bout guides. (:

Sheecarrrgooohhh cheesecake from Sentosa for dinner . XD

Just realised the "exams are over" fact hasnt hit me yet.

The stress is still swirling in my head.

{i want to post about SS501 but im dying from fatigue,

shall post tomorrow.}

Yeorobunnn, ahnyongg. (:

Bye everyone. XD

2009-09-24T16:20:00.002+08:00

'No matter how many years and seasons pass'

- One Year Later [ Onew & Jessica duet ]

Its 16hours.

Its 16 hours to tmr's 8am when i typed this.

Tomorrow is longawaited aka dreaded paperone!

Denise is only using comp for 30mins.

Then off to revisereviserevise.

So i decided i should blog. (:

23 Sept

"I think she's a chinese -.- and can hear "

Hahhaha, studied at ws library with xuanqi & claudia after school.

Had kfc for lunch.

Then spent like 3 hours? at library revising.

+ chanting, borders, lip-reading madness.

really enjoyed studying together. :D

Olevels.

Realised my brother's been having night classes this few days.

Can see the stress of studying for olevels taking its toll on him.

Ahhhh, just want him to simply do his best. (:

" Do your best & God will do the rest" ;D

Chenmin unnie, you too!

And 2 days agooo, i realised.

Super Junior's Ryeowook birthday's on 21st of June!

So near mine. Hhahahahh.

& yes, Leeminho's is 22nd june.

Knew bout it ever since BOF.

{Suddenly i love my birthdate. :D}

I realised cm, beatrice, cel & mae all got share vids.

Only i never. D:

So i think i should.

Since i've watched all vids i can find of SS501 on utube. (:

*goes to youtube*

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l4PiaYWUG5Y

The vid had the collection of the ringtone & alarmtone SS501 recorded.

With english subs that is.

Recorded for all TripleS! :D Peaprincesses.

I realised if i actually post the vid here, yunjin claudia valerie hannah,

all gonna kill me. -nods head-

Yeah, so my fellow SS501 fans out there! -pointspoints-

Have to watch that vid k. (:

About the necklace, tee and 'camping for tickets';

Im really interested and want to. (:

So if im not online when you guys are discussing.

Just count me in.

Believe me, i'll agree to all SS501-related things. ;D

Inyoursmileeee. :D

Have to go already.

Use the comp any longer, time'll fly.

I know im not prepared.

Sorry for not being able to be online msn. D:

Ahnyonggg ~

Last sprint too soon?

2009-09-22T17:00:00.001+08:00

Studayhe dates alert!

Paperone in 3 days, others ?

Hahah, super happy for geoggg. (:

Got one extra mark with my ~~actcute~~ explanation.

Omgosh i want buy SS501's designed necklace.

They got indiv. design and "group" necklace.

This i definitely want ;;

Super niceee, stylish and super thloved. Inform me if anyone knw whr to buy! ;D

Hahah claudia says my blog is becoming koreanpostsblog. XD

{ Im fine with that happening though. - thinkthinkthink

Drank almost full bottle of water today.

Theory derived, denise drinks water whenever she's falling asleepp.

Mrt-ed home with claudia & yunjin, met candice & hannah.

Talked about; PMS , MMS, Subway cookies! & this new yoghurt shop @ ws.

&&` Earth just stopped spinning for today.

Monday although was a holiday,

unwanted things still happened.

Made me realise what trivial things parents can quarrel over.

Result, me having a glass/wire splinter in my leg.

Screamed into my brother's pillow.

& guess what, they dont know.

On a muchmuch lighter note,

SS501 aka my loves, was on the cover of both Teenage & Teens! (:

Bought and read finish both last monday.

Saw ppl in sch holding the mag, even more spasmsmiles.

Hah much, like literally HAH!

My brother likes Sorrysorry and It's You by SuJu.

& super lots SS501 songs. (:

And he watched finish SuJu's EHB series before i did.

looks like my kpop fever got him too. ~ ;D

Mooncake yumyum. Lianrong and durian bingpi.

{"im a mooncake"}

Have 3.5 mooncakes at home. Portion in me & bro's stomach. XD

*cleans mouth with tissue*

I go study science, damn chemical eqns.

Ahnyonggg. ~

Baby say again.

2009-09-17T16:54:00.009+08:00

SS501 Leader Kim Hyun Joong's back in korea and well again!

HJL was down with H1N1 and was quarantined in Japan for 20days.

Super happy he's well alreadyyyy. (:

I want to buy SS501 Aloha Photobook!~

There's only 1000 copies summoreeee.

But it's selling for $68.

Ahhhh i need to ~~savesavesave. D:~~

Tuesday after science remedial & guides, went to TM.

Had ~~sinful~~ Mc's with aunt, smalltina & grandma.

And my aunt tgt with grandma, bought me a new phone! (:

Actually its a ~~new~~ phone, older model than my W880i.

Just that its music features are muchhhh better.

So i love it <3

Baby say againnn, baby please say againnn. SS501's Again. (;

And omgeee denise i want to zhuang4 qiang3.

Went TM popular with qingyun 2 weeks ago, and there's no kpop albums.

That day i went again, there's SS501 album & DBSK album! :X

Its SS501's Super Hits though, i already have.

But its selling at cheaper price, and with FREE POSTER!

Ahhhhh, went around screaming to myself.

And wthh, tuesday's math test was easy.

And tingxie on wednesday needless to say.

Today's chinese test im xingxinmanman de. (:

Tmr's elit, ceeehmeyeee. XD

~~Leeeee & her conservative father.~~

Yesterday after studying chinese, watched Suju's Exploring Human Body on utube.

And yeaps, i like Yesung the most among the 13 supers (:

One, he's super weird and unpredictable. ( Just like leader! )

Two, his singing is wowwww. ( Saengie~ Oh, he's good friends with YS too!)

Three, he's v sweet to the other members, Eunhyuk & Ryeowook esp. ( Kyu muchh )

Four, he talks alottt. ( Blabber king jungminnie )

Five, he's unbelievably cute. ( Magnae hyungjunnnn )

Yeap, my 5 absolute reasons why i like Yesung. :D

And yes he totally looks like leejunki, and viceversa.

Left; Leejunki, Right; Yesung. ;D

Agree? Hehehehh, denise is hungry.

Shall go cook maggiemeee.

Maybe posting more lateerrrr. (:

Ahnyonggg. ~

{/edit}}

Oh yesh, Leeminho's coming singapore on the 10th of October.

For some BOF promotion.

So, all those Gujunpyo aka Leeminho fans out there. Take noteeeee. ;D

2009-09-13T19:16:00.002+08:00

Blogger's at least abit better now for my comp.

Can post pictures! ;D

Sorry for not posting once i got my sneakers!

Had to finish my homework.

Yeah, so last thursday aka 3 days ago.

Went taka with qingyun for the meetup.

Super satisfied! ;D

Whoever watched TYFWUU, would be able to recognize these people! ;D

And we went to this Gramophone music CD store.

Bought SS501 Super Hits! album! $24

Qingyun got new earpiece for her Kube.

And then todayyyy, went Bras Basah de Artfriend to get lantern-making stuffs.

Then i went SS501-album scouring at the suprbig Popular.

And tadah! I found my <3s!

They were selling SS501 Collection, 1st Solo Collection & Super Hits! ;D

All left like, 2~3 onlyyy. (Proves how popular they areee)

I bought the 1st Solo Collection album for $16!

Yayyyyyy, got 3 albums alreadyyyy. ;D -super happy-

Oh yesh, i also saw the u-weekly mag.

Got FRH on the cover, super cute lah Aaron YYL. (:

&& SS501 got 5-star ratinggg! (: -proudproudhappy-

Watched TripleS's perf of U R Man on mae's blog.

Ahhh super hot and i think the mics got prob. :X

But who cares, triples did super well. (:

If yunjin or valerie sees this post, pardon me for my kraze.

This post is for my fellow fans aka nonstop fan-girling for SS501 friends! :D

Hehheh, sorry for posting so late. :X

School's tomorrow, miss the stress.

I better go finish up my math.

Damn you trigo. D: Toacahsohhhh.

Yayyy family havin steamboat+teppanyaki for dinner.

For no random occasion. ;D

Shishamo's available tooooo.

Hahh just want to admit how cool SuJu members are when they perf Sorry Sorry.

~~:X I think Sungmin & Yehsung's the coolest! :X~~

Because Sungmin reminds me of Baby (magnae) ;D

And Yehsung looks like Saengieeee. XD

Hehehhh ahnyonggg!

Hungryhungry veryvery.

2009-09-08T12:46:00.001+08:00

Ahhh finally got a day can wake up late.
Muhahahaha.
Gotta do geog and chinese though.
And chinese revision.

In your smile, ne misoro marhe ~

(:

Kpop kraze's not endinggg. (:

Stuck on SS501's Again & In Your Smile. (:
And TVXQ's Bolero & Stand By U.
Super nice ballad-ish songs.

Learning Journey was coool.
Loved the optical illusion, and break @ Mc's.
Was feeling unwell in the morn so didn talk much.
~~Hah, blogger's still screwed.~~

Im so shocked and sad for my Saengie lahs.
Turns out the song "Is It Love",
Also my blogsong,
the one he wrote and composed, was about himself.
He confessed on <3 colour women talkshow>.
The girl he cant forget until now. D:
http://asianfanatics.net/forum/index.php?showtopic=610351

And omgee im going crazy thinking bout it.
SS501 had fanmeeting in Malaysia!!
Malaysiaaaa, meaning, most likely SG also will be having! :D -smilesmile-

<3

Hhahhah, woooo. Getting my idol sneakers on thursday! (:
Shall go do geog now. Anhnyongggg.

Like i can control it.

2009-09-03T17:58:00.006+08:00

Trust is a weird thing.
It can make you feel really good at one time,
Then slap you in the face the next.
-piak-
Like ouch.

-
"Over an insignificant girl like you"
Wow, you really dont know how that felt.
-hears a familiar piercing sound-
Saw your smile yesterday. Miss it much.

Yesterday,
Sacrificed my image for elit.
~~Bouffant hair lady~~, more like siaozhabor.

Today,
Smuggled choco mint up to class again.
Bought for chinese, finished it before science ended.
Failure mansxz denise.

Surprisingly, my september holidays is quite free. (:
*hinthintwinkwink*
Monday need go back school.

Getting my SS501 idol sneakers on fri! :D
Ahhha cant wait. Kohqingyun you'd better accompany me. (:

Sent that darn chinese thing to 'cher more than 2 hours ago.
Off to watch more BanJun Theatre Dramas on youtube. (:

I remember everything, but all in the wrong ways.

2009-09-01T21:06:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Beatrice! 3109
Im super glad to have known you through our fan-girling for SS501! :D
Really hope we can both together with CM, go their concert!
Enjoy your holidays! SS501 oppas are always there for you! (:

Saengil chukha hamnida! Happy birthdayyy.

(:

New ASAP Wants!
1. SS501's First Story DVD & $50
2. Photo501 DVD + 501 Pages Photobook! $70
Prices are from LGOS blogshop (CM reco)

Actually i got savings to buy both, but need save for concert tix also.
Howhowhow, ahh confused confused. :S

Yesterday teachers day celebration was cool yohhh.
Sorrysorrysorrysorry ~
And 4A's Nobody perf was kinda one-man show.
One guy's awesome dancing & solo wave~ + encore's m-zi-tui.
Laughed like maddd. Wakakakaka. XD

Nobody nobody but you! ~ -clapclap,point,clap-

Stupidest person i ever met, ~~denisetansinnmin.~~
I forgot to bring my house keys to school in the morn.
Reached home, nobody's in.
Second time i locked myself out.
Haishh.
Good thing my nicenice bro chiong home for me. :D
Meridian was really like a reminisce time for me.
Mr Idham says i look really different.
" height is progressing, yes progressing"
Hahs, miss them all.

Today was spent zihighing at chawit's house.
Could have been over in 1 hour, but we slacked for 5 hours.
His house rocks man, the design and everything.
Had fun playing with the two toy guns. XD

Left at 3, took 12 with yunjin.
Went home and spent 3 hours playing Sims 3 on my phone. Hahahs.
~~Denise's such a no-lifer.~~

Currently im hungry and bored.
Watched finish my K.O3an Guo epi 27.
Brother's sleeping, everyone else out.
I have gonghan to chiong.
Shall go find more games to play. XD

Byes people, (:

An angel's smile

2009-08-30T13:44:00.001+08:00

I totally screwed chinese oral. D:

Didnt know how to read the chim words
Stuttered like omgosh
It was Cailaoshi who tested me!
Asked on pa4 shu1, i talk about bu2 xi3.
Prompted more than 3 times.

In a nutshell, i sure cee-ehm-eye. D:

SS501! Always and forever ~

Butbut, (:
I realised the pictures of SS501 oppas i brought to school,
helped me feel not so stressed.
Kamsahamnida double 's' oh-gong-il oppas! :D

Watched ManWon Happiness ytd.
Made me realise even more how polite & cute Kyu is. (:

And the part where Baby was helper, uber cute.
Kyu's reasons for askin Baby to help.
It was jungmin's birthday so he had to eat.
Leader was injured. (then)
Saengie was still sleeping. XD
Omgosh how cute.

Went 18chefs after oral with hannah&gang.
Pardon me for being lazy. XD
Enjoyed the pasta and talk.
Lastmin truth or dare was rofl.

-spins pepper, points to claudia-
Claudia: What?! Utter shit.
-silence- ...
Claudia: Truth!
Hahhahahhaahahahaha.
-spins again, points to yueren-
Yueren: What?! Utter shit.
Everyone: Truth! XD

Random much. (:

Went to whitesands myself on friday around 8-9pm.
Wasted 8bucks on a top which was totally not my colour.
PinkPinkPinkPinkPinkPinkPinkPinkPink.
Got nail buffer and a cute star clip from Aries.
And a 15dollar Surfers Paradise tee. (:
Yeah it was okay actually.

Cant wait for monday.
Not because its Be Yourself Day,
When im made to wear class tee to school.
Teacher's Day cos im going back to MPS. (:
I really miss you guys. D:

OHEHMGEE the SS501 Merchandise preorder finally open!
On myccube.blogspot.com of course.
Ahhh i want buy 'vrything but no money. D:
But i really want the photobook.
500photos and 1dvd. :D

Beatrice and CM unnie ahhh, believe it or not i dreamt of Saengie last night. (:
I was sad sad uber sad in my dream and he was comforting me!
Ahhh the cutest prince with an angel smile. :D
I really believe all SS501 oppas are always there rooting for us!
I cant stop loving them. Those who dont like me being liddat, shooooooo. XD

Im going buy clothes with my family already.
Toodles yohhh. Ahnyong! ~ -smilesmile-

Dont say those words again.

2009-08-27T22:32:00.001+08:00

Tomorrow's really crazy.
~~' Crazier, crazier. '~~
( Yunjin & Claudia's nonstop at-my-ear karaokaeing )

-

Elit, bring home clothes.
Need make my hair look bouffant.

Guides, bring guides uniform.
Means, tie braids.
Also, bring guides tee.
And since there's bathing parade tmr,
bathing materials & a damn pail.

Really, damn that pail.
Its gonna make 'vrything so much harder to carry. D:

"Always look on the bright side of life, doodoodooodoo"

But on a much happy and brighter side,
on myccube.blogspot.com (blogshop im shopping at),
SS501 Merchandise Preorders open on 28 August! :D
Wooo, other than the KHJ Diamond earring i've ald purchased,
There's another place to spend my savings. (:

And i've successfully gathered more than 3 approves,
to my beloved Idol Sneakers! :D
Just last week i was complaining bout my ald-too-tight purpur sneakers,
I found them! (:
Wowwww, happy much.

"Reminisce the good old carefree days in meridian, denise. "
(:

Teachers' Day/ Be Yourself Day next mon's gonna be a disaster.
-lime green class tee to school-
Then going back to MPS after school.
Im never gonna be caught dead in limegreen.
Its not the class tee, its the colour.
I'll look like barney.
Wthhh.

Lalalalala
Its a song calling for you
Calling for you
Lalalalala

I better go pack for tmr.
Toodles ppl. (:

Painful touch of a person's warmth

2009-08-25T23:20:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Rachel!
I'm 40mins early.

(:

"Have a hot coffee to warm up those freezing hands on a cold day."
Looks like im rather dispensable.
Or should i say, like that show, just a post-stick note stupid stupid girl.

-ugly black crow flies past gawkgawk-

Science test was easy.
Looks like my studying and revision didn go to waste.
Studying for geography is boring.
Basically everything's common sense, aka basic human should-have knowledge.

"denise!" -whole class turns to look at the falling asleep me-

Was rather determined on getting doubsci, corehist & electgeog next year.
But seeing how simple geog actually is.
Im actually contemplating.
Taking geog as core is really gonna do me no good, i just know it.

-

~~Falling further into that bottomless pit of neverending deafening screams.~~

-

Not like i want it to.
That passion i had earlier's slowly seeping away.
Like a leaking tap, drop by drop, im losing faith in the thing i once enjoyed.
PS, this is not some disclaimer to denise's return to emo-ness aka PMS world.
Just quite disappointed things are turnin out this way.
Or is it just me?

TVXQ's Micky Yoochun:
" They say its a place where dreams come true,
But the memories it left me with,
Makes me never want to return there. "

(somehow this really applies to what im feeling now)

On a lighter note,
I finally ordered my Kim Hyun Joong aka Yoon Ji Hoo earring. (:
Cant wait. :D Ssang you!~

That crystal-clear love, I promise I will find.

2009-08-22T12:22:00.004+08:00

Another person has given up.
And sadly, my batch is shrinking.

Endure;
this word had many atimes convinced me to push on.
but also made me think about the reasons why the hell im pushing on for.
for the experience maybe, or simply for the memories.

The korean word game made my heart skip a beat.
SS501 loves appeared in my mind again.
Realised my beloved vivien aka ~~dwarf~~ maam, also likes them. (:
Had fun with ixora, goodcheergoodcheer (sounds like some cheekopek)
& water-bombing an oblivious valerie.

Went home earlier than usual, walked down hill with rach.
Listened to my kpop songs, realised that they literally control my mood.
But i like it like that.

(:

Todayyyy

SYFC training was spent practising my never-improvin r/c skills,
and talking about eye-liner and mascara with Nut.
Chinadoll jokes and complainin bout yiyang's rapid height growth.

Went amk hub with jia and nut.
Watched 3D UP with nut.
Didn realise tears were flowin at the 1st part of the movie.
Loved the 3D goggles we couldn bring home.

Tears, laughs, & that unusually familiar feeling of my cold numb hand.
Memories i dont want to have,
Made me wish i had somethin to rinse my memories clean.
Train-ed home alone. Sickening 1hour-long ride.

Going out to watch Where Got Ghost in 2hours.
Can be considered a rather plentiful saturday spent.

Sunday will be spent;;
Wearing a pyjama-like tee, walkin 5 boring kilometres.
~~Cant wait.~~

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reached home at 12am.

Omgosh blogger's no longer ~~screwed!~~
Finally i can switch back to allow everyone to view my blog. (:

Just came back from watching Where Got Ghost.
Laughed like madass.
3rd story of the movie was debest.
Cos it was continuation from Money No Enough 2.
And yes, because of that memories flew back.
But its okay, i super lame/diao-ed by the jokes.

& tomorrow's gonna be denise anti-social time.
Hahhahah. Maybe. Either listen to songs, or talk.
Probably not the latter. XD

Happy thanks to movies.
Happy thanks to my usb cable finally liking me again.
Happy thanks to BLOGGER.
-smilesmilesmile-

Love of my life; Love is my life

2009-08-19T23:42:00.001+08:00

Love my new blogskin. (:
Took really long to make it look nice. D<

Got quite a few tests back recently.
Did okay, but could have done better.

Really sick and tired of getting scolded.
1. Got scolded for not going to the doctor.
2. Got scolded for waking up late.
3. Got scolded for sitting infront of a computer.

What can I say?
Life's a bitch, quoted from someone.

If its competition you say, bring it on.
I wont be doing anything.
If its fate, its meant to be.
If its not, whatever you do will be all for nothing.

Made our Goal Cards today.
Most important thing for me now;
Stop being so emotional.
Had enough of my emotional breakdowns.

Ayes people tagged to be linked.

Total fun in the hot sentosa sun. (:

2009-08-10T17:23:00.000+08:00

Damn it. Too many things to do, too little time.
Thanks to my procrastination.

This long weekend's been rather great. (:

Went sentosa with family yesterday.

-Sentosabeach-
Bombarded with ppl of all races,
Had my aunt put makeup on me in the mid of the road.
Nice eyes for the day, :D
Icecream from Newzealand-sth. YUMMM
Scared by 6 female peacocks on the loose.

-Underwaterworld-
Fish reflexology thinggy. [Tickle-ish est thing i ever felt]
And super shiok feet massage afterwards.
Icecream from Ben&Jerry's. DoubleYUMYUM.

-Vivocity-
Went blazer-looking with my brother at Gap, Zara and G2000.
Saw a super shuai foreigner guy.
Realised christine was at sentosa too.

After all the heat and fun, went to dad's stall for longawaited dinner.
Damn my usb cable dont like me. Cant upload pictures.
Another time then. (:

This week passed really fast.
2.4 was ohkayyy. 12.01 mins, 30th position.
Satisfied with my timing. (:
Although deproved from last year. D:

Looking forward to holidays!
Holiday-job with qingyun.
Sleepovers.
Comics.C shoppingggg.

DECEMBERKRAZEEEE.
those who know me will know what i mean. :D

DOUBLE 'S' (:

2009-07-27T12:29:00.006+08:00

Rawrhrarrh yunjin ahh.
Force me to updateee.
And its elit now!
I dont like you. (:

Hillsong concert rocked.
Loved it & totally enjoyed myself. :D
" THANK YOU VALERIE!
for inviting me and stuffs. (: "

Hahahhahhs, this days i've been smsing qingyunnnn.
Crazed krazed with her bout SS501!!!
Hahahh i love kim hyun joong. omgosh super loved.
& young saeng too!
His voice is so angelic lahhs. (:
Planning to have sleepovers at my house during sept hols.
Watch double 's' videos overnightt! :D

Cant wait. School's been flying like FIEWWWWW!
December holidays will be here before i know it.
I dont miss meridian that much anymore! (:
I dont miss the life that much back then.
Growing up is actually good toooooooo.

Knocks you downnnn.

2009-07-09T13:30:00.003+08:00

I GOT A NEW HAIRCUT!

Not hair actually.

I GOT A NEW FRINGECUT!

Hahahahahhh, inspiration from my bang hannah. (:

Love it yohhs.

Saturday was so happy got syfc.

& omgosh, happy birthday yiyang!

but woke up and got informed no yfc! D:

that stupid jiale at 730 am ald at yfc. Hahahhs.

Sunday went church & at the shop i bought 2 stuffs for two ppl.

One's birthday on 4th july. the other's in december. Haiyohh.

Monday school was okayhhh.

Felt flu-ish from the morn, temperature was ald 37.2 !

Guides after school only to know NDP cancelled. D:

Went swimming with claudia & sis. (:

Had dinner at fish&co with grandmama.

Woke up mid of night with super sore throat, cough & flu. D:

Convinced to not go school on tuesday.

Went to help out at dad's stall and went doctor.

" Wah, hen2 yan3 zhong4! " - i sick until quite serious -

Got another day of mc so cant go school today.

Happy birthday christine! seventhjuly

Know you for, hmmhmmhmms. More than 4 years confirm.

Thanks for being a friend even though i wasnt really one to you.

Meridian is more memorable cos of you. :D

Happy birthday jiaying! ninthjuly

My dearest YING! :D love calling you that.

Guide sisters ftw mansxz. (:

Off to do my cover pages & poem finalisationn. :D

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YUNJIN EPIC FAIL! Wakakakakkaka.
Aiyoh valerie stop copying me! :D

TRANSFORMERS 2!

2009-06-29T08:45:00.002+08:00

Like, woah! Transformers 2 was omgosh rock to th max! :D

23rd 06

Aunt found out it was my birthday the prev day & dragged me out to 日本村 ! :D

Shishamo-ed, fried salmon. Stone pot bento thing. Total awesome-ness. (:

Then i told aunt ruxin's 忘情水 joke. & she laughed like omgosh. :D

27th 06

Carnival-ed from 8am - 3.30pm.

Then super gong-ness ( dumbfreakass i cant believe i did that ) .

Took mrt from bishan with guides to city hall.
Then came out cos rachel told me that line doesnt go jurong east.
Went toilet.
Took back the same one i came out of.
Ended up at marina bay!
Took back to city hall.
Went on 3 escalators before realising i had to take the joo koon train.
Found the train and took it & got off at jurong east.
Called brother.
" where you?"
"jurong east."
"what you doing there, its lakeside! "
Sighs and gets back on the train.
Got off at lakeside.
& found uncle in his car waiting for me for almost 1hour. D:

What the & i cant believe i was that gongggggg.

Bathed, got into fbts & ate soggy noodles.

Watched transformers 1 all over again! :D

Omgosh the dirty humour was like funnayheeee.

Forced to get into a dress cos they say i was gonna freeeze in my fbts.

Not sure when was the last time i wore a dress. Hahs.

Wore my 4dollar star ~~necklace~~ choker. :D

Left house at 8pm going off to marina square!

Dinner-ed at long john's cos kenny rogers was super ex. D：

Food was yumyum but service was omgosh i dun wana talk about it.

To the cashier, 25.10 - 1.50 = 24.90 ( omgosh! )

Then went to giant to get chips and drinks.

Went to arcade to play cooking master & spot the difference!

Had fun watching my bro play bball & have every single shot shoot outside. :D

Pwned my uncle's gf & my brother in bishibashi!

Realised we're late and chionged to marina gv.

Had perfect view and almost-height. (:

Laughed, enjoyed 'vrything . :D

28th 06

Spent the day smsing yiyang bragging to him how transformers 2 rocked.

Told him all the dirty humour parts of transformers 1 & he was going mad.

Haihs, boys will be boys.

Went to uncle's gf's house. Played with ah-pui! ( the garfield clone i discovered. )

Fat lazy orange cat.

Had chicken rice for dinner.

Chips for lunch.

Bee hoon for breakfast. (:

Went home at 11plus. Bragged to my siblings that i dun have school! :D

But still, HBL can go die.

Today

Happy birthday aunt ivy! (:

I dont know how old are you but thanks for everything ! :D

I shall be good and go do elearning.

Tags replied lerh i think.

Bahbyeeeee peepoooo. (:

Fourteenth birthday. (:

2009-06-22T02:38:00.012+08:00

Happy Birthday Denise! :D

Thanks truckloads to everyone who wished me hpbd! (:

Thank you joven, hannah, yixuan, valerie, xuanqi, jermaine, albert, darren, claudia & qingyun! For the midnight birthday smses.

So touched that you all stayed up &/or rmbed my birthday! (:

Im super happy my wish came true.

Truckloads & lorryloads of thanks to everyone who gave me pressies, smsed me, wished me, gave me big bear hugs, making my 14th birthday super memorable. :D

Todayyyyhheeee 21st

Afternoon, went to get evan's present & went to her party.

My dear 5yearold cousin just looks super adorable in her mermaid costumeee. :D

Helped out with the art and necklace making for her 5yearold guests.

Left with brother after pinata was whacked & i koped one mentos.

Thanks again to timo & kenny esp. Taking care of me this lil sis of yours.

& my brother for sending me home at 1am. :D

&& Happy birthday jacqueline! (: fellow 22nd june birthday person.

Class outing dayhe 20th

Went earlier to set stations. Met elwin, phyllis & lisa.

Amazing race was quite pathetic cos my group only had me & lili. (:

Felt accomplished bout bbq cos i helped with the fire.

Spent the evening chatting with claudia & sister.

Even later evening with group of peepo waiting for 403 & camwhoring. :D

Felt the love of platonic friendship, talked my heart out with c&t#3! (:

14 in 3 days ♥

2009-06-19T20:12:00.002+08:00

" Im fine with anywhere as long as you're happy "

Im sure I have fallen for you. (:

Omgosh I had super truckloads of fun yesterday :D

Badmintoned from 2-3 with val, selina, yunjin.

Realised my badminton skills need loads loads of brushing up.

Still, this shortzilla had fun. :D

Celebration was just uber enjoyable for me.

Hope everyone did too.

Talked, played carem, meesiam & mini-bbq. (:

Laughing at rachel's break-voice. :D

Chatted horny stuffs bout getting turned on and blablahblahh. :p

& i love the jelly ahma made, the cake she bought was superb tooo.

I absolutely love all the presents. :D :D :D

& im super grateful to everyone who made time to go!

No matter what time you left. Thanks for being there. (:

♥ valerie, yeekay, selina, jiawen, rachel, jiaminn, megan, evan, hannah & claudia!

♥ dad, mum, daniel, daphne, jaysson, ahma!

the wish i made during the starting of 2009, certainly came true.

[/edit photos to be posted when i get some! ] (:

& we found out, 22-26 june. NO SCHOOL! :D

Student Camp '09

2009-06-17T10:28:00.004+08:00

哈K 463! & 康康 madness ! :D :D :D

Omgosh, im so lag. Everyone posted about camp lerh i still havent. (:

I miss everything about camp. Hahahahahs. Had super loads of truckloads of fun.

I miss calling tania taneeeeee.

Calling valerie feminine. [muhahahahahah ]

' Eh? -piak!- ' with xuanqi.

Waldo-ing with yeekay.

Eating AC's marshmallows.

Seeing linjing keep getting piggybacked.

Laughing at cherie's 'seducive' dance.

Snatching my lion from leighton.

Lmao-ing at dianne's youthfulness.

& discussing estee's relationship with cheeryouup!

Esp. the last night!

Mass dancing to HEY MICKEY! -clapclapclap-, Speedy gonzahleshhhhhh.

& the -covercover- AHHHHHH!! :D

Barbequeing porku, rolling hotdogs, superb chicken wings.

Imagine lying on the church hill upside down while guessing charades! :D Doing morning jog around the parade square. Counting the lil stars/satellites. Talking bout our lifes. (:

Playing captain's ball in the dark with 阿牛! ( softballers )

& finding out stuffs like tight ass, puberty/shaving! ;D ;D ;D

Now we're struck back to reality & facing the mountains of homeowrku! D:

But the memories are worth it! :D

Waldo, guitar-boy, beat-box boy, robot boy, CHEERYOUUP! (:

Really hoping to go for next year's student camp. :D

Have to leave for lydia's house ald! Go do our jodi picoult group assignment. (:

2009-06-08T20:50:00.008+08:00

I never knew prawns had orange/red/white/pink brains. :D

Today was spent out with kohqingyun!
My dearest sista aka xiaozhabor. Missed her like omgosh.

Went whitesands library to find her, & i got lost.
And when i finally found her, she tells me she lost her ezlink card.
And i managed to persuade her to report it.

Walked around for more than 20 minutes before realising,
Cotton On was beside Calvin & Keith.

~~Mainnn point.~~ Cotton On Mega-sale! :D
Cardigans, tank tops, tees were going at 5dollars.
Skinnies, denim skirts, shorts & dress-tops were only 10dollars!
Yeah, went around high-ing at the omgosh nice clothes.
Waited for the 30min-long fitting room queue. :D
But it was all worth it. (:

Bought grey top, electric blue cardigan & a super pretty dress top.
All for only 20dollars. :D :D :D

One Step At A Time & 说好的幸福呢 was played at different parts of my day.

(:

05062009 Blast of a day.

Double cca-ed. :D

Morning was spent at yfc.
Had ~~15min~~ 1hr joyride on the Fokker 50.

Me and Nut were allowed to sit at the most rear end of the aircraft.
Felt all the change in air turbulence, and movements of the aircraft.
The co-pilot expected us, the two only girls, to experience motion sickness.
But everyone else ( all the guys ) did, except us. :D

Really not able to describe the experience,
but it was definitely super-omg memorable.

Fokker 50, flown by the 121 Squadron, RSAF. :D

(:

Evening, was spent with guides. ♥

Farewell was really different from last year's.

But still as memorableeee. :D
Really happy everything went out as planned.
Or even better.

Dance was better than rehearsals,
Song was sweet sweet sweeter than ever. :D

Hahahahahahahh. Limes & Banana clones.

RSAF 121 Squadron's motto " Seek & Destroy. "

Raging hormones.

2009-06-04T19:33:00.009+08:00

The bird's gone.

After hearing that the bird caught was giving me nightmares,
my mom set it free this morning. ;D

Feeling so much safer now, at home.
But my throat's hurting,
Got a bad flu too. D:

Spent the day playing maple.
Lazy to do heymath.

~~&&, my heart's been shaken~~

You are so different from what i thought i needed.
And we are currently such good friends.
But Im really worried I'll fall for you one day.

But when that day comes,
Will you love me as much as I will.

Or isit really just like what was said;

its just my mind playing with me,
that we ll really always just be friends.

Emotional breakdowns.

2009-06-03T17:15:00.001+08:00

Boom boom powwwwwww.

Tenth Circle i read until page 108 lerhs. Feel so accomplished.

Unofficial activity today was ~~quite~~ slack. Wore fbts and long-fringe there. :x
Painted and got painted, washed brushes and palettes.
Saw claudia, tang, bang, elaine, chearmin. Pubtions ppl painting.
Hahahahaa, tang bang. Sounds cooliooo. :D
Perfected sectwo batch item. Proudproudproud. (:

Eighteen chef-ed with 12 other guides.
Emotional breakdowned all a sudden, not sure why. D:
Looked for samasama colour code tee for our batch.
Went home, ~~freaked out. D: D: D:~~

Bathed, realised im home aloneeeeeee.
&, the friggin bird, marcus ( valerie's brother ) caught ytd at my house,
is no longer under the laundry basket! D:
Its on top, chirping its lungs out.

Im now currently self-locked in my room.
Cant wait for my siblings ( who arent afraid of birds ),
to come home and save me! D:

救命啊！

& about those weird emotional breakdowns.
Sometimes i dont even realise im crying.
And i know its gotta have to do with the dreams im having.
About him & all.
All the times i miss, the times i wish i never had.

2009-05-31T18:47:00.001+08:00

Im missing an underscore key.

Came home realising my brother had plucked out all the keyboard keys to wash.
& now, we're missing an underscore key.
Heck those diao-ded emotions man.

Friday

Ended the school day with laughing at guangjun's geog score.
Then hear him laughing back, pointin at mine which was worser. :x

Guides started off with secones and twos separated pt-s.
Really felt the need to complete the pt with good comments by seniors,
and we did.
But the aftermath was just horrible. D:
Felt really bad, but was really too tired to do anything bout it.
We had farewell preparations, making beanies and hats.

Debrief was when i suddenly felt as if,
i lost the passion for guiding.
Suddenly felt as if everything was worthless, or just lip-service.
But thought about it after that, and really regretted even harbouring that thought. D:

Saturday

Reached earlier than usual, but not early enough.
There wasnt training, just competition. & we're there to help.

We didnt help much actually, more of spectators who got CIP points.

I was kinda shocked for a moment when yiyang flared up at me,
really was my fault, being a nuisance.
Became quiet for over an hour, didnt know what to do.
But yiyang later on also started talking to me again.
Sorry. D:

Competition ended around 3. Spent 2 hours harassing mr yap.
We wanted the super chio orange ex-co tee. :D

Went home, fell asleep on the bus but got up at my stop.
Really need earpiece. Keep me awake.

At home, bathed, went to aunt's house to have my peanut soup!

~~Peanut soup = my solution to getting taller! :D~~

& i've started on my jodi picoult book! Tenth Circle. (:

Fell asleep, dreamt bout him, clearer than ever. D:
But i know this unrequited love of mine, is never gonna let go of me.
Despite of how much I want to forget about him, for 2 years already.
Maybe its really like what amira said,

" If you cant forget about him in 5 months
from the time he broke your heart,
you ll never be able to. "

2009-05-27T20:31:00.002+08:00

" Its you & me against the world. "

Claudia's all-so-loved phrase.
Hell-ohhh.

Monday

After school, went with xuanqi to ikea. (:
Lunched poach salmon & talked about siblings.
Walked around looking for sweet-container.
Bought hot-dogs! -squeezesqueeze-
Went to giant to buy sweets.
Waited for 30mins plus for shuttle bus.
Took 81 from tampines inter and fell asleep. D:

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Guess which one's mine. :D

Tuesday

After school, went to 2c to slack with dear welfare partner!
Supposed to go gym, but was too lazy.
Waited for ek & val's patrol proposals, then walked together out.
Valerieeee couldnt join us. D:
Went to simei & got jap sushi and temaki.
Walked to ek's house and watched ' Over her dead body '
Watched before lerh so sian sian. Hahs.
Played with ek's new hamsters before going home.
Cute lil furry things. ;D
Bus-ed with yunjin to tampines inter.
Took 81 and fell asleep again.

Reached home, too too tired. Washed up and fell asleep all the way to next morn.

Wednesday

Morning no lessons cos all 'chers were at meeting.
Botox came in and surprisingly only talked a lil.
Shocked. Mr yeow came in & had his last lesson with us this year. D;
Sad sad, he's a nice teacher that i actl understand.
PE was fun, with usual captain's ball game.
Hahahs, claudia and my butter fingers. ;D
Later on lessons were boring. Math & Fti.

After school, went to help out at homec room.
Helped claudia with her mindmap.
Mrs looi got me to help everyone buy drinks.
Hahs. Paul helped.
Mrs looi supposed ~~' few minutes '~~ ended up to be few hours.
Crazy-ed with claudia & welfare partner, laugh until fats pain. ;D
With clouds boobs and moobs. Hahahsh. (:

Bus-ed home with them, laughed throughout cos of yunjin.
She cant stop laughing. Hahs,
She & claudia thought i was watchin ____ on my phone cos i smiled at it.
Funnayhhee.
Played with alighting button, tried to make yunjin press it.
Didnt have seat so kept falling so they kept laughing.
Hahs, me & my centerofgravity.

Reached home, bathed & blogging while waiting for 天才冲冲冲

Sorry, cant rmb school after 24 hours. Hahs.
Im both sad & happy.

Yunjin & claudia really made me laughhhh.
Exams are over, guides resumed.
Class tee long done.
All these lil stuffs make me :D :D :D

Sad & disappointed, didnt do as well as expected.
Family problems still there.
Got whole list of things to be done.
Keep falling asleep in class & bus-rides.
Still a short short shortzilla.
Raging hormones making me confused bout how i feel.
Thoughts of junior college. D:
Obviously, more sad than happy.

Cant wait for the day that i can shout across the seas.
Shout all my troubles away.

Beautiful ;;

2009-05-23T15:09:00.005+08:00

" I will pause for a moment.
Probably see my life passing by,
then realise how great you are. "

:D

Thursday, 说好的幸福呢

Wows. Only remembered the guys singing jay chou song during music.
Super mv-ish and romantic. (:

Friday

Spent assembly leaning on claudia, beside yunjin and infront of valerie&yeekay.
Bored, searched for devices with bluetooth on.
Then, ' valeriel ' popped out. & valerie was like, (??) not me! -.-

Overjoyed that guides resumed. :D :D :D

Made me high during the station games.
Had two stations with orchid, VALERIEL!
Flying toilet paper! :D
Realised im a potential model! (: could walk steadily blindfolded. LOL.
Had total of owe-ing of 136 jumping jacks.
But snrs didnt implement. D:
Feel super bad. D:

Went home and bathed. Came out in a towel cos forgot to get clothes. D:
And my brother said,
~~" Ohmgosh! I see a pig in a towel! "~~
Instead of scolding him like i usually would, i burst out laughing. LOL.

Saturday

Went to yfc, scolded by mryup & mrtony for being late.

Didnt care.

Flew a few rounds with nut's heli, pulled yiyang off the ground.
Jia didnt come again . D: darn you exams.
Finally, khalil wanted to go seletar airport de canteen there eat.
But nooooo,
Nut and yiyang refused. Hahas.

Wanted to watch night@themuseum2 with nut & yiyang.
But nooooo,
Yiyang had to go home sleep. So me & nut decided to reschedule.

So anyone who wants to watch night@themuseum2, (with me)
text me please. (:

Reached home, smsed yiyang random stuffs. Watch my KO3, and started blogging!

Welfare ♥

You and me ♥

2009-05-20T18:21:00.003+08:00

Monday

Went into car, heard Sugar on 987.
Left car, heard Sugar on 98.

Coolio.

Got back history, D: not up to my expectations cos i studied like hell for it. D:
Cant rmb what i got compre, aiyo. Only know my summary 13/25. Fail. D:

Tuesday

Went school with giddy giddy feeling in my head. Weird.

Got back maths i think. Not as bad as i thought, 61/80 ( A1 ) :D
Chinese made my day. :D
Although i got a 53/90 for paper2, and 8/20 for sihan, my comp get 53/70! :D
Was really frigggin happy. (: But alot ppl in class cried cos of paper2, went to comfort peggy.

Walked down hill with daphne&vivan to go get class tee! Met jiaminn on the way.
Then i heard limyiyang call my name. And he was with daniel. LOL.

Took bus 81 with daphne back home.
Got home, bathed & tried on class tee only to hear from my brother, long
Yeah, very true. (:

Wednesday

Went school with class tees. (:
Happy to see everyone okay with class tee sizes and all. Accomplished-feeling all over me. :D
Welfare♥

Didnt get back english paper1 yet. D: chinese comp 'cher also never elaborate.
PE, played captains ball @ bball court. Was a sian sian match cos place was too quiet.

Went eighteenchefs with yeekay, jiawen&yunjin ; loves , after school.
Valerie couldnt come along. D:
Ate, had yunjin's icecream, gossiped. Bused 9 with yunjin to 201, then 12 back home.
Got off 12 realisin kenzie was on 12 too. Cool. (:

Wooooo. You and me ♥

Cause it's you and me
& all of the people with nothing to do,
nothing to lose .
& it's you and me, and all of the people
& I don't know why,
I can't keep my eyes off of you .

2009-05-18T15:16:00.006+08:00

Hahs. I have decided to not post about what happened and post about whats happening now.

Omgosh, my brother just had to let me see the ' urban legends ' he was searching on. Freaking disgusting crap shit. -pukes-

Even me, who didnt get disgusted by the ' foot binding ' thing, is now still havin that disgusting picture in my head. Dammmm. And that legend's partly true! I shall not elaborate and just say that the legend heading was ' Breast Infestation ' Note, its infestation. Now i'll just leave your minds to run wild at the thought of that heading. Unless you really want to know more, then ask me on msn for the link. D:

Now i see another super funny one. Cat's fur gets cut into like a lion. Result, you get a seriously pissed off cat. Muhahaahhs.

Funny crap lahhs. -laughlaughlaugh- Look at the cat's expression.

Okay, now to other stuffs.

Dont know why, but my head's been hurting these few days. It feels like a pair of hands pushing against my temples. Maybe cos of too much crying. Or my lack of sleep. But still, my head hurts like omgosh. Had painkillers already, doesnt seem to work.

Now's another funny picture. But like insulting myself. But who cares.

How true man. LOL. Poor lil shortzilla. :D

Need to go bathe now, put earsticks, get more painkillers for the pain thats killing my head. ( maybe they are worms inside ) :D

2009-05-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

Heyhoooh.

I love this new blogskin. ;D

Myes, finally over.

Have to blog about alota stuffs when i got time. (:

Tagreplies.
Joven arh, i dont care. you're still a toot that sucks at djmax. muhahahs.
Chris, exams are over! Hooha! (:
Selinananana, yeshyesh. we shall own the guys. at least i knw you will.
Elaine! i loved that munching idiot. ;D
Hahahahas, she's a super nice mother that gave me potatoes! claudiajyjy. (:
Zhongbiannnn! Willwill. Hahs, my brother's lame. [:

one minute till midnight. <3

2009-05-02T19:26:00.004+08:00

DAMNSHITCRAPSTUCKONMAPLEPRIVATESERVER. D:

Not again denise. D: really not the time to get addicted onto ANY game. Pleaseplease, study. I can see myself getting my result slip from limlaoshi then going, - *heavesbigbigsigh* how could i have done so badddd. *cry*(maybe) -. I dont want that to come true! D:

I'm home alone again. ):
brother gone off to friend's house to help bigsweepcloset, when our house desperately needs one. parents off to work. sister at aunt's house.

and you know what? downstairs my house i think having some kind of singing competition. now im hearing 日不落 by Jolin Tsai. A moment ago i was hearing someone sing 稻香 by Jay Chou. Weird crap.

Dont have much to blog about. Other than i was stuck on a math question i tried to do ytd. Dont know how to factorise 12x(square) - 3y(square). I think the ques's like that. Too lazy to go check. D:

Now, i wanna post random talks to ppl that pop up in my mind. (:

Anna mydear♥, i know you're feeling awfully stressed out. but yeah, i do too. but of course i know it cant be compared to yours cos all the while i've been the less hardworking one. Okay face it denise, i've always been the slacking one. D: but i really study alot for Common tests & Class tests nowadays, hoping to finally one day receive back a test paper that plasters a smile on my face that actually stays there. Up till now, not yet obviously. But still, hold on anna. Things will be fine.(: I guess. Hahs denise, hahs. Cant wait to see you, anna again. but you know, all the while we'e so fated to be friends that fewmonths-long quarrels can also be resolved, and we could actually bump into each other at tampines mall. Wahahs. Lots of love. ♥♥♥

Qingyun xiaode. You've always been very hardworking, i know. But i really do miss you cos you've hardly replied my smses and even supposedly after your big tests, you still dont. If you'd like to study, you could always ask me out for study dates. I could help you, you could help me this heck of a careless freak. Yeah, hope after MYEs, we could really go out together. (:

Yeekay xiaobian! Just replied your sms but who cares. (: Thanks for always going crazycrazy with me over waldo and all those crazy stuff. Hahahs, yeah we're a crazy bunch. Really miss guides activity, especially the times when superhyong then we as a batch had to jiayou together. Our batch's getting more bonded am i right to say that? Yes we're getting more bonded. Sectwo life's supposed to be most enjoyable for our guides life so yeah, let's enjoy it together. (:

Valerie zhongbian! Wahahah, we always go crazycrazy over handsome/hot guys we see, for example, number8 and my number10. Muahahah. And yes, guy from lovestory mv. (: Thanks for tolerating with my lame-ness all the time, all the likebrother,likesister stuff. And msn-ing with you is always so fun. XD continue being omgosh cooliooo and chio girl. guides sec2batch is so super unique cos of all us unique people! (:

I have to go and solve my factorise 12x(square) - 3y(square) question now. Or else tomorrow have to chiong then no time to revise anything. (: And yes, do my graph questions. Rawrh, damn graphhhs. Blog another time then. (:

&&` maybe i dont really know him as well i think i do. D:

2009-04-29T21:48:00.009+08:00

Current tests finally over. (: *wheeves sigh of relief*

So, i finally get to blog post crap shit! :D Starting off i shall blog about yfc on saturday.

First time ever, yfc was so boring i fell asleep ~~on purpose~~ unknowingly! It was aviation award ceremony. So me and my 'gang' was asked to wear full uniform, but in the end we're the only ones wearing. Damn paiseh lahhs. And weijie took picture of me dunno doin what... At the end of the ceremony, weijie woke me up and we had buffet refreshment to eat. Muahhahah. ;D But its like, i didnt feel like eating so i was like;

denise: let's go seltar airport there eat lahhhhs! -whines like crap-
jiale: noooooooo. this noodles super nice. -continues eating-
nut: yah lahs. eat this one can le. -eat eat eat-
weijie: you wan i help you take? - also eating-
denise: nooooooo. i dun like eat buffet. please lahhhs. -whinewhinewhine-
jiale: four choices; 1, i give you mine. 2, nut feed you. 3, weijie help you take.
denise: four, go seltar eat! -beams spastic smile-
mr yup: seletar airport today closed....
everyone else: -laughlaughlaughlaugh-

Retarded asss lahhhs. I was like so sad. Hahahs. After yfc, we saw a nice dog at the bus stop. then i went to nut's house to study for history test. Studied for 4 hours straight. Had dinner at her house then went home. Felt super accomplished. :D

Then on sunday after church, went off to hwa chong there for yfc demo with nut. But in the end, reach there then raining so cancelled. What a bummmer lahhs. D: So went shopping at shengsiong with my family. turtle nose pigs, catfishlike-fish, frogs, weird shaped tomatoes, potatoes, and kinderjoy! (: i hate it but just bought for the sake of reliving my childhood memories of kinder surprise chocolates. :D

And todayyyyy.
History test was okay. But ppl were cheating during the exam. (:

After school, went to wenjing's house to bake her cake! The cake was like, *drool* i wan to eat! *drool* Her house's big. 4 storeys tall. (: Me, yeekay and yunjin left early. Waited together for 12 which as expected, was super crowded. And i sat all the way to whitesands, help valerie-zhongbian! buy present. (:

Went home to find that im all alone. D: bathe shiok super long shiok bath. :D then i msnmsnmsn, and now bloggin about my retarded life. (:

2009-04-25T00:22:00.001+08:00

Wooooo. Got all my old posts back. So my archives is longgggg. (:

Didnt stay for ptc today. Instead, went to eighteen chefs with cuiwen&yeekay! Food was okayyy, but eighteenchefs was like, filled with us anglicans. Like anglicans situated there liddat. LOL.

After lunch, walked to yeekay's house. Where got is HDB lorhhhs. Got stairs one & interior design so uber nice summore! (: Oh yahhs. Condolences to yeekay's 3 hamsters. They were all found suddenly dead, faxian by cuiwen. Heat stroke most likely, or maybe cos they saw cuiwen! LOL, still restinpeace furrythings. (:

Watched Another Cinderella Story at her house, played super lots of iphone games and i was addicted to play shotgun! Cock, cock, BIANG! Coooliooo. :D

We stayed for dinner and there was shishamo (pregnant fish). Cuiwen was super astounded and felt super sorry for them. Like, super cute lah she. LOL.

Ended off with a chiong for bus 292 and long wait at bus inter for 81. Nothing much already. Go blog-hopping around another day. (:

2009-04-18T02:20:00.000+08:00

Handover's over. ): And flowerpecker has 2 people transferred out. Like whyyyyyy. ):
Maggie maam's PL of dove. And rebecca's transferred to ixora. Gonna miss them like @#%!*%. D:

Let's start on a lighter note then. Start from the top.

First we had changing parade. Before we ran off, i spotted yiyang at the top deck there looking. Stupid extra. Never come yfc today, went malaysia to fish. LOL.

When we changed finish, I had 'the feeling' again, eyes blurrry head giddyy hard to breatheeee. I could hear my heart thumping so hard inside of my head. But i told myself to hold on, and managed to hold on for another minute or so, until i was completly knocked out. Really thanks to people who noticed that i was fainting. (: ( valerie, wenjing )

Joan ma'am brought me to a side and i really couldnt see anything. Head pain like $!@!#%. then tyan wei who was playing piano got really concern how i was and came over to ask if i was okay. I dun think she knows me but i was really touched by that. [:

When i was finally okay, went back to my patrol and started playing wet games. Ran around the school finding for stations. Had musical chairs, straw-water game, ice&water! Got really wet at the 3rd station. Stupid jiaying kept targetting me cos i ran after her. Hahhs. :D After the games, handover started. And i was starting to have leg cramps. Aiyo, so suay.

Happy for valerie, jiaying, megan and cuiwen. they got patrolsecond! rock man you people. but strated crying abit when ixora's clara got transferred to be PS of my patrol. Cried even harder when maggie maam got transferred to be PL of dove. I really love her alot. My dear secthrees. (:

Then we had patrol interaction/ eating time! Vivian was like, can we eat now? x5 Hahahs, she so cute lahhs. Maggie maam and annabella maam surprised cecilia maam with a birthday cake! But we knew about it. Were supposed to distract her. Hahahs. And when i opened the zasty apple drink, boooshhh! the drink splattered all over my guides uniform. And i lagged for 5 seconds before i closed it. Hahahs. Cecilia maam was like, hahaah you lag. And told me i could do nothin bout it cos i cant make my guides uniform wet anyway. So only washed my arms.

Ended and all, then we finally had sectwo batch picture. (: took pictures with alot of people, includin my piecesoflovingdabians. Hahahahahs. Its okay, everything's gonna be alright. ;D

I posted this at 6:14pm.

2009-04-15T07:00:00.000+08:00

Just wanted to post this before midnight. (:

Happy Birthday Mommma!♥
thirtyseven already oldieee. XD ily mom. you're the best mom any kid would ever want. [:

Will update with stuffs and photos when i have the time. Wahahs.
Freakin post timing screwed uppppp. I posted this at 10:50pm man.

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Me & Momma ♥

Candid shot requested by my father. XD

"FORMAL" photo. I love my family. [:

Cake chosen by me and brother. (:

2009-04-13T00:52:00.000+08:00

Happy belated birthday benjamin! 10thapril2009

Wahhhhhs, havent been posting. D:
Hehehs, 终极三国 i watch until episode 7 already!　(:

The one on the left's A chord. On the right's my love. 脩! They're from a band called 东城卫. And 汪东城's inside too. XD Okay, enough about obsessing over super-hot guys. Hahhahahs.

Happy belated birthday yuyang & andy! 9thapril2009

GOODFRIDAY!
The birthday party was a blast man. Had alot of fun. Before going yuyang's house, me, hannah, claudia, pinyi and tangtang went INK to buy another bag for yuyang. Lunch was superb. Played daidee, watched guangjun get owned by baichuan at table soccer, then we went to the void deck! Yuyang's mum was like playing soccer with the guys. Hiong siol. And poor yuyang's sister got whabamed in the face by baichuan's one kick of the ball. Sadsad. D:

Went up again to get bags and cut cake! Cake was yummy man. And Knowing was really a movie worth to watch. Hahahs. Heart-popping/stopping movie. There was like, 14 movie tickets.

Coolio. After movie-ing, claudia left. D: then we stoned outside nebo for awhile, followed hannah and sat on the floor. XD Went to fish&co express to eat and everyone at fish&chips. LOL. After food, actl only hannah had to leave, but in the end everyone walked together to whitesands to go home. Hahahs. And i heard from yiyang that he and gerald wanted to join us at 8.30pm actually. But i guess everyone was tired already. Hahs.

Thursday after school.
Went to tampines mall with hannah, desmond and yiyang. Went to buy yuyang's present! We were like really dunno what to buy for him, and ended up buying a domokun. Hahahs.

Went to Burgerkinggg to eat Hershey's Sundae Pie. ( reco. by hannah ). Shared horny jokes, laughed at yiyang's reactions and hannah had to leave after that. Then went to check out TM-ONE! Its super big, refurnished, stocked with omgosh lots of stuff & of course, super crowded. Desmon, tang and yiyang kept pangsehin me for no good reason. LOL. Lame.

And i finally got my piercings done. Darn you desmond kept trying to flick my ears. o.o

Youthflyingclubbb. Finally managed to get a picture with jiale. (:

He looks a lil weird here. Hahahs. And yes, all the while he's been a guy. Although jiale's rather a girl name. XD I told him i'd post this. He told me not to. I told him to tag me, then i'll remove. Hahahs. And there was this angmoh guy flying r/c heli that day. Super omgosh pro.

Can you see the heli? Hopefully. Cos it's upside down! I can only do that on like, simulator. Hahhs. Pro man. :DDDDD

And i bought a new pair of pumps yesterday. Loving it. ♥

2009-04-08T00:05:00.000+08:00

A BIG BLACK BUG WITH A BIG BLACK BUTT
BIT A BIG BLACK BEAR WITH BIG BOOBS
MADE THE BIG BLACK BEAR'S BOOBS BLEED BLOOD.

Thought of this highly-intellectual poem on the way down to MRT station after saying bye to ahshuen! (: ahqi is no longer ahqi, she's xiaobian! Who tell her call me dabian. LOL.

Enrollment today was okay. Felt very accomplished to endure through though. The wind was so wooooosh - that mindy's buree fell off. I was like, omgosh what to do. :X and when evangeline fall out, she was like super pale looking. Lips white de.

After enrollment, we didnt have time to have guides de patrol interaction and was immediately dismissed. So we had our own! For once, our patrol managed to finish one bag of potato chips. XD And instead of our usual greentea, we had coke and sprite. Surprisingly, i wasnt feeling gas-y at all.

Changed out of guides uniform with ahshuen. Then looked for xiaobian. Then when we went to the life-less canteen, we see her. LOL. Sat at mcdonald's table with kingfishersectwos. Talked about scandals and random stuff but soon we got chased out of school by the security guard. Like, rawrh man.

On ~~tuesday~~ monday ahhs. After guides, xiaobian, ahshuen, me&elaine went TEN to play table soccer! Wahah. End up, i owe ahshuen milo, and xiaobian strawberrymilk. LOL. First time hearing ahshuen screaming soomgosh highpitched. We all played '1 against 3' games. The solo player if get 3 points and above, we'll owe her whatever. Hahahs.

After table soccer, we played 终极密码 at the other side of TEN. Punishment was pumping. Yu cheng was playin together. She's chao fit lahhs. 20 standard guy-pumping straight, face not even red. Like, wahhhs. Ahshuen also coolio lahs. (: Then we played monopoly. Like, wah lame. LOL. Then we stacked our legs together. Just when i wanted to take picture, xiaobian whack ahshuen's legs. XD

Have been sleeping through science these days. (:

❤ Breathe in the rain people.

2009-04-05T19:08:00.000+08:00

Wahahah. Its been fun. :D

Youthflyingclub last saturday was uber duber coolio. (: Jia le & yiyang had their v3's maiden flight! ( first flight ). Not literally pilot the big thing lahs, is fly r/c heli. Its not as easy as you think it is! :x This is yiyang's v3.

Cool right? This is the r/c heli we're currently flying. Next on would be fixed-wing! Which would be these.

It would be much easier compared to flying r/c heli. I didnt have my maiden flight cos i didnt bring my v3 there. XD Wahahahs, nut also didnt come cos of her school's homecoming carnival. And this was taken by me! Had to be so far cos of safety: at least 30ft away from spectators. Its yiyang flying. Hope you can spot the heli. (:

And yiyang sent me this picture after his heli battery went out. XDXDXD

I already warned yiyang i was gonna post this. (X

After yfc, we had the show&share thing meeting at my house. Discussed, rehearsed and then we played mahjong! Dont have any pictures though. D: In the end, my seat there won the most chips! Followed by claudia. (: Had a good time singing to songs while playing, freakin out when the tiles fell and all. Waahahs. Next time, come my house for movie marathonnnn!

On sunday, my family went to my waipo house to have dinner. Did my 公涵 there, and we saw this omgsoh lol funny notice pasted on the corridor. Seems like bicycles were being stolen. XD

And my brother was thinking of pasting a note next to it saying, " 多谢关照，会注意的。小偷先生启。" LOL! Funny lahhhs. C:

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Finally managed to clear the spamms on class blog. Suddenly thought about guides activity today. (:

Was hoping for drills, but in the end is help secones with their guides uniform. (: so we ended around 4. Super early lahhs. Half-batch went to eat at canteen. Then ahlim, ahqi, ahchew, ahnana, rihannah & me went to TEN to play table soccer. XD screams, 10-cent/milo bets and woohooooo-s. nana and me against ahchew and rihannah, ahlim bet on them, ahqi on us. In the end we lost by one point. Wahahaha. So ahqi owes ahlim a milo. [:

Thinking of making batch tee. Wan like, jersey. So our backs got number 1-20 (including deborah!). maybe numbers will according to height ( D: ), or by name! ( :D ). Then we would rather put nicknames. Maybe like according to what we hate? catfur. [valerie!] or according to bubbletea flavours? iceblended, peppermint, chocolatemilktea. but i wan it to be according to what we love! for me it would be either cheesecake or yam. XD

2009-04-03T06:35:00.000+08:00

Wohoh, just came across this boy singer on someone else's blog. He's super cute man.
This was him when he was just a child singer.

This is him now. ♥

Total hot-ness right! (: He's Declan Galbraith.

Okay, now into proper blogging. Wahahahs.

Today school was boring, so i wont elaborate. XD

Guides started off with gadget tying. Today we tried something new. Tying blind-folded! (: Actually was closed-eyes for me cos i dun have blindfold. :x Was super cool man. Feeling the number of fraps, and where the poles were. Coolio.

Then we tied a shoerack, been quite long since we last tied one. Hais. After gadget tying, we had neighborhood orienteering! Managed to plot the route and make use of it effectively. Wenjing was totally high-ing throughout the whole thing. LOL. Came in 7th. D: But its okay, flowerpecker shall do even better next time ! XD

After orienteering was a short session of foot drills. Piloted up and down church carpark hill. Tiring, but feels cool. After guides, we had dialogue session with yijing ma'am! I shall not disclose details, but all i can say is that,
I haven't had such a good laugh in a long long time. (:

Shall go and do homework now. Got 公涵 and art to do. And study for math test. And revision for 谚语听写 next monday. D: I will post the coolest checkpoint picture we took when i receive it from rebecca. [:

2009-04-02T19:20:00.000+08:00

Counting in my previous blog's posts, this would be my 110th post! (: Finally, i managed to create a new blog, new link. Long awaited man. C:

Happy belated april fool's day ! (:
Started off 1st april by scaring selina into believing someone fainted. Wahah, paisehhh.
Only remember that. Forgot the whole day afterwards. Muahaha.

Today was well, pretty much as usual.
Spent english lesson thinking of ideas for english poster. Ended up drawing my ' stamp out singlish, cockroach = singlish, cockroach named singlish = piack! ' idea. XD
Managed to understand abit about congruency stuff during maths.
Homec! Everything except one thing turned out as planned. Our product was surprisingly very nice to eat! Accomplishment man. Previous tries maade me not even want to smell it. It was so succesful and omgosh, our end product was totally not what i had expected. It was way more. (: Look how pretty it is. (:

Im super uber proud of my group man! Especially claudia, for meticulously shaping the crushed-oreo stalk. (:

And here's a picture of all the other groups' products all together baby!

Mrs Looi say that all our groups got 5/5 for presentation! Woohoo, she ~~is a~~ rocks! XD

And here's a picture of our dear yeekay zilian-ing with my phone. C:

2009-03-31T22:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY JIALE! [ 30thmarch]

Even though you and nut love to tease me, you guys still rock. Especially you brother! Thanks for always being there to help us during yfc. And pei-ing me to eat hokkien mee! XD

Rawrh. I just dc-ed from MSN. Like, 5 seconds ago.

Okay, Im back. Today no guides then so had mini batch lunch!

As suggested from me, we went pizza hut to eat the student meal! There were six choices of main courses and in total got, me, yeekay, valerie, selina, yunjin, megan & evan. Out of the six choices, only got one we didnt order. So cool! XD We ate and i told jokes. Wahahas, i love my jokes. Then we ended the meal with zhongjimima! We played with mushroom soup. (: I only kena onced cos evan pushed it to me, waahh.

After eating, some pigs still go buy icecream! LOL. We went to open plaza and gossiped. And we played supeer lame truth or doubletruth game. XD Wanted to watch movie, but gossiped till too late. Then went to check out class tee prices. Wanted to have ear piercings at 77th street, but in the end decide to pierce with qingyunn next time instead. (:

Went home, everyone. Pei-ed valerie to find her bus 10. In the end cannot find so we go take mrt! Then entered a carriage full of ma'ams! Coolio. Reached home, bathed, charge phone!

HALOHALOHALO!

I want to buy more hoodies. Sleeveless ones. Vests nice also. (: Faster go have my ear piercings done! I wan go gym. Meet up with mira one day. Imy babe!

Thanks to this post, i missed my Mythbusters. NOOOOO. D:

2009-03-28T23:12:00.001+08:00

Youthflyingclub was very bad for me today.

As usual, i take my time going to yfc and today i reached at 8.45am i think. Reached there shocked to see that everyone was still at the parade square there. Put down my bag and just joined the crowd without even anyone noticing. Hahs. Mr beber was lecturing everyone on almost everything. From dressing to attitude. Yearones are given the privilege of not wearing yfc trousers for the first three months. But yeah, i dun give heck about how i dress at yfc so im still gonna wear my skinnies there.

For another 30minutes, we were scolded. Then people who had uniform group ccas were asked out. And stupid me went out. Me and 5 other people teached the whole lot how to take dressing, attention and ease things. Yeah, sediya and whatever. That took around 20minutes. Then we had a 20minute break. After the break, everyone was asked to the lecture hall. Where we were lectured by mr beber for another 3 hours. And after knowing i was a girlguide, beber purposely kept calling me. Whenever i talked to anyone, he'll make me stand and scoldscoldscold. Then anything everyone anyone else did would be related to 'the-girl-guide'.

Right till end of the training. Even weijie and yiyang say that i was being suan like ~~fuck~~. Plus the jerk of an ass had to make things worser. Still, I wont elaborate on that thing. Cant. Didnt tell anyone, but i was really feeling very humiliated. For once i wanted to cry in someone's arms.

I want to change blogskin and url. My url depicts how i feel, and i know i dont feel that way anymore.

2009-03-26T18:39:00.001+08:00

Sorry for the ~~short~~ long emo post previously. D:
Im feeling much better today already. I guess it was just a moment when everything life came suddenly to me, telling me how much i've missed. Thats why i got so emotional.

Wahahs, today school was rather fun. English math english was as usual boring. The group at the back was basically just chatting away. Hahahs. Was so worried bout doing homec by myself, but i was like overjoyed to see daphne in school today. XD
Homec was fun. Mrs Looi's really really nice actually. Our dish was like, super pretty and yummy. (: Wanted to do our chilli-look-alike that period, but in the end not enough time to make. Wahahas, it was like,:

lydia: is that chilli?!
gracia: i wan smell!
yunjin: sambal!
jieying: you put chilli inside ah?
-open to smell-
shijie: smells okay what.
lydia: if wan to make me puke, let me smell that.
gracia: yucks.
jieying: okay lahs.
charis: nice lehs!
everyone: what?!

Hahahs, damn funny. I go do my science now. Later then blog. XD

2009-03-25T20:53:00.000+08:00

I think i should reply tags at ppls' blog. Yeahs i should.
Feeling very very sad today. Especially after school. I realised i dont actually have a close good friend in anglicanhigh. Other than one buddy ccamate and guidesisters. But still, everyone's got their own friends and yeah. I know im alone.

I miss the times back in primary school.
Tests were never really put to heart, and they never turned out to ever be very damn difficult either.
Friends were just friends. With occasional random scandals of course. It seemed all so nothing wrong to chat for hours on the phone with girl or guyfriends. Its like we thought we'll always be such good friends where secrets were never needed.
There werent as many a-p people as secondary school. Everyone had like a very good heart, being nice to anyone who came their way. I know they were some ppl who were not as liked back then, but still friends were still made.
Going out was all-so convenient, and i think was taken for granted. As i can tell from how far apart we are now. Its really like, we're so near yet so far. Singapore really isnt big at all. Its just that everyone has their own schedules and stuffs to do that it is almost impossible to have a day when everyone's free. But that i would have to understand i simply forget it.
How i wish i could wake up one day to find myself on my way to meridian again. And to start off secondary school all over again. To not do all those notnice things i did, to not say things i shouldnt have said. And of course, to have more friends.

So many things lined up for me. This to do, that to attend to. Im starting to feel the stress man. I think i should have long ago, its the only way i can numb myself. Please, think how it would feel like to be me. Being happy-go-lucky never works. Neither does deceiving yourself to think that those ppl who you think are your friends, think you are their friend. Nowadays, i really feel like im wearing a mask. One with a smile on it. Its really hard to smile these days. I cant find anything to smile about to. Please, dont leave me till a time when i have to revert to how i was for quite a while in primary school. When mentioned the name denise, they say, " you mean that emoemo girl that's always alone?" And it was friends, anna, christine, qingyun& amira who changed me. Now it is friends who's turing me back into it. Just that they're from secondary school.

For the first time, i feel all-so hollow inside. And its not because of him.

2009-03-23T22:45:00.004+08:00

Back to school man. Bored. Excited. Stressed. Bonded! XD

Holidays was a real time for me to relax and reflect upon myself man, but many many things happened. One of which i think have scarred me for life. And omgosh, it has somethin to do with youthflyingclub -my third love. [ second love's guides. :D] How i wish that never happened.

Spent tuesday & wednesday slacking at home, homeworking, listening to music. Then thursday to friday i had yfc flight leaders course. Go there 830am every day, go home 4pm. Darn, i was pangsehed as yiyang went for the monday to wednesday flc. Jiale and nut was like MIA. Yeah, so the flc i went, i was the only girl from openunit. Actually there was only a total of 4 openunit ppl. Damn super retardedly pathetic. And the 3 guys were ppl i hardly hanged out with normally, but i knew them lahs. But guys will be guys, and all they talked about was ~~gay~~ porn. Like, omgosh save me. Thursday i didnt sleep during theory much cos i was quite awake. But friday and sat i slept throughout most of the lectures since i found a way to block myself. And yes of course, he just had to tell me that he whatever damn ass jerk and ruined my friday and saturday. Wont ever elaborate on my blog. :X ( tapes mouth )

School today was normal. Managed to keep awake by drinking water during chinese. Wahahs.
Science was distracted by yeeling's questions. How to spell sick words.
Recess, settled on eating western. Then went bookshop help sister buy her 2dollar plus black pen. Went to homec room to drop our afterschool -product making ingredients there.
And hahah, resulted in us going back to class just behind mrs koh. XD
History was boring, other than the part where mr yeow did something funny that i cant remember.

After school, elwin me claudia. Went to try and pray pray please success make our product. Damn funny. Cardamom smells like crap. I dun likeeeeh. And we were only supposed to add a quarter teaspoon of that. But elwin poured the whole half a cup of cardamom in. Me and claudia was like, rawrh omgosh noooooooo. And he volunteered to eat it no matter what. Was supposed to be done in 10minutes, but we baked it for 40 minutes and one tray was chaodahhh. D: Tried a few bites and ewww yucks puke. Still can imagine the taste man, nononono.

Go watch cdiv boys match. Against my brother's school man. Wahhhha. Total pwnage ownage. When we reached it was like 2nd quarter, score was 0-24 i think. Obvious who's leading. End score was 15-63. Total ownage pwnage man. XD In your face brother. Rawrhrawh.

Wooohooo, class blog's almost done. When i wanted to copy down the url, all i wrote down 2bpencil then walalala, erased. Damn lol. Cant imagine what would happen next yfc training. I miss my babes man. Meridian, yfc, guides && onea`oheight. - thought we'll never part man. Wan sleep already. Continue more bout my life next time. :D

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2009-03-17T19:25:00.003+08:00

Wahahahahs. Whats wrong with me man. Sometimes post alot, sometimes never post at all. Rahhhh, Im all alone at home. So sad. I think I better faster type all the stuffs that's on my mind before I forget eeeveryythinng.

Yesterday was a blast.
Chiong-ed to school and reached just in time for fall-in, woohoo. For the first time, my bag was like freakin huge. Hehe, cos i had clothes, slippers, tissue?, and some other random stuffs. Hahahs, self-defence course was super beneficial for me I think. Hahahs, reminded me bout taekwondoe. Oh yahs!, my dad wants me and brother to join back taekwondoe and my brother to go learn muay thai! Hahahs, i wan learn muay thai also! But my dad dun allowwwwww. Rawrh. Chambara was really fun, whacking ppls' legs and asses. Hahahs. Didnt manage to whack valerie, she arhhh. After cca, woohooo!
Scooted to ehub with 13 other batchmates. Lifang, cuiwen, wenjing, felicia and ruxin didnt come along. DX Surprisingly, we all only had to pay 13dollars60cents each. Heard from my brother that time when he went with his frens, each person payed 30dollarsplusplusplus. Then go to change, hahah, feel so much better. (: And we started lalalala-ing! :D
Love story was the most crazy song, everyone joined in, me and val crazed over the supershuai guy in the mv, wahahahh, memorable man.

Hahahs, i got my report slip back already. And I havent got my parents to sign it. :X
SEVEN SUBJECTS, 4 Aones. 1 Bthree 1 Bfour 1Csix!
And definitely yes, the csix belongs to english, which is supposed to be all along a1/a2 denisetan! Cant blame me though, i scored 12/20 for compre, 4/20 for book quiz. Hahahhs. Its alright, everything's gonna be alright.

I realised tripscience is for crazyass study ppl. Not gonna elaborate who, cos im gonna so get scolded at if i do. Hahahs. So yeah, I hope I can at least get purephysics&chem and ahhh, geography. :D Retarded jiale top-ed his level in his school for combined humanities. Rawrh. And he was laughing at me for not getting straight As like he did in sectwo. He's secthree this year btw. Ninetyfourrrr. Hahahs, been's some time since we last spotted sevenrounds. Wahahas, -yfc insidejoke. XD

Sadsad, guess we're not getting any meridian marchholouting after all. Everyone's so busy. January, tried to ask ppl out, everyones' reply was, "march holidays bah. " March holiday's finally here, everyones saying, " Got training. " Really very sad lehhs. D:

LOL, my brother's friend/ my "brother" since primary school was tryin to contact my brother just now. And since my brother's phone was dead-outofbatt, the call kept being redirected to house phone. And it was like,

Joe: yoz where are you?
Denise: huh? why would you be looking for me.
Joe: eh? i thought i call your brother?
Denise: you try call again lahs.
-3seconds later-
Joe: hello? eh? why hear your voice again?!

Wahahahahs, found it hard not to laugh.

Hahahs, thanks to someones advice, i think im finally really feeling okay lerhs. At least now whenever i come across things that have to do with him, i dun find it hard to breathe, or even cry anymore. It was really hard though, only if you knew.

Song stuck in my mind, ♥ 搞笑 - 罗志祥

2009-03-07T23:08:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QINGYUNNNNN! [6thmarch]

We've known each other since primary 4, and we've been xiaoxiaosisters ever since then. Im really happy girl, even though we've not managed to get into same sec school, we're still as close as ever, (or maybe even closer!). Hahahahs, going out with you is always soso fun and i can totally be myself around you, telling you every single thing going through my like, knowing you would understand. Hehehs, thanks for forever tolerating my irrittating-ness and omegosh lame jokes. Hahahs, really hope we'll be sisters foreverandever. I promise you i'd do my best. :D

Thursday 05032009

Stayed back after school to watch bball match. Woohoohs, ahs clinched champions for both guys and girls bdiv! :D But i must say, the girls' match was more intensed, with all the sudden stops at last 2secs. Actually didnt really want to watch at first as i had to watch alone. But when i reached the stadium, spotted yeekay, xuanqi & cherie! Even though i've just got to know cherie and xuanqi, i know they're super nice ppl already. : D
Cherie left around half of the girls' match. After the match, xuanqi sent me&yeekay to the mrt in her parents' car. (:

Friday guidesactivityday!

We had gadgetying, then orienteering lessons! Learned alot more and revised alot more from friday. (: After guides, me, yeekay, valerie and rachel stayed back. Wowsie, we gossiped for like super long. Hahahahahs. Super funny. Wont elaborate though. I'd die if i did. XD

Reached home and brother helped me borrow flying simulator from mrtony. I practised&practised, but just kept screwing upppp. Totally couldnt hover at alll. D: prepared to die the next day at yfc. Suresure CMI. Then nut smsed me whether we were free for movie-ing after yfc the next day. And of course i agreed. (:

Todayyyyyy! Saturday 8thmarch

Hahahas, was super late for yfc today. Hehehehs. Reached like at 9am. Had like around 3 practises on the simulator before the prac test. Nut went first, but was too jittery and mryup asked her to try again later on. Then it was my turn. Rahhhhs. Scaredscaredscared, stressedstressedstressed. Slowly and carefully, i turned up the throttle one click at a time. Surprisingly, the heli didnt give me much problems. All I had to do was turn the rudder a lil bit. And i was omgosh, able to hover! For like more than 5s i think. :D Mr yup was very pleased and i only had to fly for that lil while, and i passed! XD Wooohoooohs.

Jiale didnt come to yfc again today. And sms him never reply, call him never asnwer. Rawrh. Later on, yiyang&nut both passed too. Hoorays! We were like superuber happy. And i managed to persuade yiyang from going home and playing his monsterhunterfreedom and come with us go watch movie! XD Then right outside yfc, we bumped into jiale's friend ( he got to know from working part-time at starhub ). Weijie's very super tall, and looks quite okay not bad lahs. Better than average i guess. And we asked him along to movie. Hahahs, we're nice ppl man.

Busing there that time, i was like crapping all my lame jokes and everyone was totally LOL-ing in the bus. Super loud summore. :x Paisehpaisehhh. Hahahs. Yiyang took like 10s to get one of my jokes then in the end even though the joke not funny, we laughed at his lagness. Hahahs. Finally reached and choosing of movies convo was like:

denise: lets watch mybloodyvalentine! i wan watch horror movie!
wj: its M18 dumb one.
nut: *on her toes* "im 18 man." *laughs at herself*
denise: finefine. Hahahs. whatsa push about huh?
yang: push's about this group of ppl who can move things with their mind!
denise: wahs, so cool! i wan watch.
nut: but i wan watch he's not that into you!
wj: but thats like more,*points to me and nut* de movie.
yang: yah lorhs, lets watch push! *pushes my head*
denise: ouch! dun wan lehhhs. *sticks tongue at yang* how bout marley&me?
nut: oh yahs! lets watch that. yang&wj okay?
wj: im okayyyy with anything. *gives coolcool face*
yang: but i wan watch pushhh.... ayes actually nvm, okay! *spastic smile*

So we bought the 2:45pm one and went towards NEBO for lunch. Hehehs. We all bought lunch express meals and got to play stacko! Hahahs. At first all four of us chose fish&chips, then when we realised that, they all changed except me. XD yiyang settled on beef bolognaise, nut chose blackpepper spaghetti, and wj eventually chose back fish&chips. lame. And icecream thingy called Dusty Road for dessert. : D Meal was overally veryvery nice. But i got sick of the fish and xchanged with nut's food. Hahahs. But we still had like, 1andhalf piece of fish left. So we played zhongjimima! Out of 6 times, nut kena twice, yang twice, wj once and me, the last one. Hahahs. Disgusting wj put all the diff sauces on the fish, and sauce from both spaghettis. Mine was worst cos he poured salt on mine. :X first taste, all i could say was HALTYHALTYHALTY! And then they rushed to buy drink for me. (:

After buying sweet(weirdtasting)popcorn, we went in. The seating was like, nut-wj-me-yang. I was gonna be corner seater, but yang was nice enough to let me in first. [: the movie was superuber wonderful! :D other than yiyang's sick comments throughout the movie. about the dog humping the sofa and stuff. Rawrhhh. Movie was almost 2hours long. But really super nice. I'd give it a 4/5 rating. (: love+comedy movies appeal to me the most. XD

Nut had to go to her school after ending her to busstop, we three ppl went mrt. Yiyang got off at tanahmerah, wj at simei, me all alone at pasir ris. Hahahs. But was really one of the best days-after-yfc ever. If only jiale could come along, it would be perfect. [:

Ohhs, and we realised weijie's pretty much a superb photographer. He took pictures of all the food at nebo, stacko's collapse, and us outside amk! :D

2009-03-07T20:23:00.002+08:00

Kop-ed from valerie's blog. Wakakak.

Directions:
Mark the stupid things you've done, then add up the number of questions you marked. This test is out of 100 questions which means that the number you get as your score is your percentage.

1. [x] Forgot to put the lid on the blender, turned it on, and had everything fly out
2. [ ] Gotten your head stuck between the stair rails
3. [x] Broken a chair by leaning back in it
4. [x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while you were talking
5. [x] Choked on your own spit while you were talking
6. [ ] Had people tell you that you are blonde when you're not, or had people tell you that your blonde highlights are going to your head
7. [x] Been caught staring at your crush by your crush
8. [x] Have looked for something for at least 5 min then realized it was in your hand
9. [x] Tried to push open a door that said pull
10. [x] Tried to pull open a door that said push

11. [x] Have actually believed someone when they said that they knew how to make a love-potion
12. [x] Have hit yourself in the process of trying to hit something else
13. [x] Have tripped and fallen UP the stairs
14. [ ] Have actually exploded marshmallows in the microwave
15. [x]Have gotten gum stuck in your hair
16. [x] Had gum fall out of your mouth while trying to blow a bubble
17. [ ] Have had the juice from a mini tomato squirt out and hit somebody else when you bit into it
18. [x] Have had your drink come out your nose because you were laughing so hard
19. [x] Have called one of your good friends by the wrong name
20. [x] Have skinned your toe because you were playing soccer or kickball with flip flops on or you were barefoot

21. [x] Have put a sticker on your forehead, forgot it was there, and went out in public with it on
22. [ ] Have fallen out of a moving vehicle
23. [x] Have run into a closed door
25. [x] Searched for your cell phone while you were talking on it
26. [x] It has taken you longer than 5 min to get a joke
27. [x] Have gotten your hair stuck in a blow dryer
28. [ ] Have gotten your hair stuck in a fan
29. [x] Tripped on a crack in the sidewalk
30. [x] Said o'clock after saying how many min after the hour, example: 5:30 o'clock, or 6:15 o'clock

31. [ ] After someone told you that there was gum on the ground, you stepped in it
32. [x] Put on a white shirt even though you already knew it was raining outside
33. [x] Have ever walked up to a stranger because you thought they were someone else
34. [ ] Ever been kicked out of a grocery store off their property
35. [x] Touched the stove, the curling iron, a hot pan, etc when its on, even though you knew it was hot
36. [x] Taken off your clothes to change into something else then accidentally put the old clothes back on
37. [x] Wondered why something wasn't working then realized it wasn't plugged in
38. [x] Put the cereal in the fridge, or put the milk in the cupboard
39. [x] Walked into a pole
40. [x] Wore two different earrings or shoes by accident/stolen someones shoes by accident

41. [x] Put your shirt on backwards/inside-out without realizing it then left your house.
42. [ ] Tried to take a picture of someone's eye with the flash on
43. [x] Gotten a ring stuck on your finger because you put it on even though you knew it was too small
44. [x] Walked out of the bathroom with toilet paper stuck to your shoe without realizing it
45. [x] Went to go do something/go get something, then when you got there, you forgot what it is was that you were going to do
46. [x] Picked up someone else's drink and drank out of it by accident when your drink was right next to it!
47. [x] Fallen out of your chair while trying to pick something up
48. [x] Have poked yourself in the eye
49. [x] Have gotten in the shower with your socks still on
50. [ ] Melted your hairbrush while blow drying your hair

51. [x] Have done enough stupid things to make a test
52. [x] Have accidentally stabbed yourself with a pencil
53. [x] Have sung the wrong verse to a song without realizing it
54. [x] Have given an odd answer to a question because you didn't hear the question in the first place and didn't feel like asking what it was
55. [x] Told someone you were the wrong age because you seriously forgot how old you were
56. [ ] Looked into an overhead purposefully while it was on
57. [x] Got up early and got ready for school/work, then realized that you didn't have school/work that day
58. [x] Forgot your own phone number
59. [x] Have tripped on a cord after someone told you to watch out for it
60. [x] Have ever laughed at a joke that no one else thought was funny

61. [ ] Done the Macarena to the electric slide or vice versa
62. [x] Said funner then had someone make fun of you for it
63. [x] Have repeated yourself at least twice in the same sentence
64. [x] Brought up an inside joke with the wrong person
65. [x] Didn't do the backside of an assignment because you thought that there wasn't one because you had already looked and forgot that there was another side
66. [x] Did more work than you had to on an assignment because you didn't read the directions
67. [x] Corrected someone's grammar/pronunciation then figured out that you were the one that was wrong
68. [x] Put something in a special place so that you would remember where it was, then forgot where you put it
69. [x] Put ice in your drink after the glass was full of liquid and had it splash out
70. [x] Told a lie then forgot what it was that you had said and got caught

71. [x] When wearing goggles, you pulled them away from your face and let go so that they would come back and snap you in the face
72. [ ] Forgot to make sure that the lamp was off before you replaced the light bulb
73. [ ] Ran into a door jam
74. [x] Told someone that you hardly ever do stupid things, then immediately did/said something stupid
75. [x] Told someone to watch out for something, then you were the one that ran into it
76. [ ] Have purposely licked playground sand
77. [x] Have purposely and repeatedly flicked yourself with a rubber band
78. [x] Gotten so hyper that someone actually thought you were drunk when you weren't
79. [x] Have been so hyper you actually scared people
80. [x] Put duct tape on your body then pulled it off to see if it would hurt

81. [x] Put duct tape on your hair/someone else's hair then pulled it off
82. [x] Put a clothes pin/hair clip on your lip, figured out that it hurt, then did it again
83. [ ] Sat and wondered why men's dress shirts have a loop on the back
84. [x] Made up a code name for someone so that you could talk about them to someone else and no one else would know who you were talking about
85. [x] Have gotten a hairbrush stuck in your hair
86. [ ] Used the straw to blow the straw wrapper at someone
87. [ ] Shaved your tongue because you thought your taste buds looked funny
88. [x] When at a restaurant, you used your spoon to fling stuff at people
89. [ ] Have flung forks at people in a restaurant
90. [ ] Tripped and made the waiter drop the food.

91. [x] As you are writing, you move your head back and forth with your pen/pencil
92. [x] Have drawn finger puppets on your fingers then named them
93. [x] Have wrapped someone in a roll of toilet paper
94. [x] Have used somebody else's toothbrush without even realizing it wasn't yours
95. [x] Have started telling a story and forget what you were talking about or what happened in the story
96. [x] Read a whole book but during the whole book you weren’t even paying attention
97. [x] You have spelled your own name wrong before
98. [ ] When lying in bed you look for pictures in the texture of the ceiling
99. [ ] Have used your calculator as a form of communication in a class
100. [ ] Have popped a balloon in your mouth

Total: SEVENTYSEVEN/100

I realised i had so many crosses, i counted the no. of blanks instead. LOL. Okay, im leaving one post for this quiz. Gonna post about recent stuffs in next blog. :D

2009-03-04T23:46:00.001+08:00

!GNAYIY UOY NMAD

You ass, going jason mraz concert still haolian to me. Wahhhhs. Wan die arh you. He's going tomorrowwww, actually would be 'today' if i took longer to post this. :x

English test on tuesday was quite okay. But yeah, i have no confidence at all. eightypercent weightage lehhhs! I totally cant count on the other 20% [ english book quiz ], as i scored 4/20 for that. Totally wonderful omegoshly failed the pathetic thing. Yay me. Dx

Hahahahs, I just realised colour of braces affects howt he person looks. So cool! I want purpurpurple braces! Dunno how its gonna turn out. Hoohoo. But i think still long until i get to wear braces lahs. Hehehs. Jiayou parents. :D

Hahhahs, i got 37/50 for chinese test. Woohoo! Counted quite supergood for me lerhs. Thanks to claudia for studying with me the day before, i managed to kind of breeze through the test. Thankyouclaudia!(:

Ima going hwachong~~mental~~institution this sunday. Got CIP points de! C: To help out for some stupid retarded yfc event thing. Have to reach there by 2pm. And once again yiyang aint going. I cant wait to fail the flying sim prac test this sat. Fail together with yiyang, jiale and nut. Hahahas, sadly i know they CMI also for sure. Lol-ing. XD

Blue hoodies are coolasice man! I forgot to mention i love blogshopping. Actually is more of blogshop-hopping. Hop here hop there, look at all those cool cool stuff i'd love to buy. Something from ♥ vainnybloqshop ♥ caught my eye. Hoodie to be exact. Hope can buy it! [:

Oh yahs, reason why i couldnt do pe today. Hahahahs. People please dun LOL at me when you all read this. But I'll understand even if you do. Hahahs. I totally forgot to wear pe shorts and wore home shorts instead. So yeah, i faked stomachache to get away with it. Hahahs.

Today after school, lili, desiree, wenjing and andy came my house. Hahahs. We did heymath test together. Wenjing was 'dummy', so she scored 12/15, while we the others all scored fullmarks, SORRYWENJING! Hehehs. Wont elaborate. Were supposed to do chinese but realised none of us brought textbook. Wakakkaka. We were totally sian-ded by doing chinese so my brother performed a few magic card tricks and andy was totally WOWed man. Going all, " teach me teach me! how you do one?!" I cant imagine if he performed them to yeeling, what would happen sia. Hahahahas.

Then we played this game desiree recommended, called hotel626. Rahhhs, scaryshitgame. Got ghosts, spirits and weird blackblack swallowyouup stuff. Its like, point-of-view kinda game. So more scary. We managed to complete it though. :O Lili was scaring herself throughout the whole game, damn funny. I was like, covering my head with blanket, softtoydog, bolster. Scarrreddd. Whoever wants to give the game a try, go www.hotel626.com. But must change your computer timing to after 6pm then can play. Unless you wan actually play the game at night, wooooooo.

Hahahs, then andy insisted on trying counterstrike. Then my brother asked him to play l4d [left4dead], super cool fun game. Controls same as CS, but moremoremore fun. Kill zombies de. Soonsooon, around 6plus, they all went home. :D

`&& 2moredaystozhabor'sbirthday! (:

TAGREPLIESPEOPLE!
elaine: Sup! linked you already girl C:
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2009-02-28T18:46:00.005+08:00

RAWRHH. * takes lion pencilcase and whacks whoever i see *

ONE; Both jiale&yiyang didnt come yfc today.
TWO; I havent passed my flying sim prac test.

Jiale went for some retarded geog competition, and yiyang fell awfully sick. Leaving me and nut all alone. Theory test was easy, i got 16 /20. Prac test, i was so lan that mr yup ask me try next week instead. Like, wahhhahhhhahhh. What a joke man me. D :

Guides&Scouts excursion day. 27th march.

Guess what? Flowerpecker got combined with Eagle yet again. But I insisted on not using that weird combined patrol name we had, Pegle. * pukes *

We took buses to telokblangah and had station games for an hour. Three actl. First game was like charades, and vivian managed to get almost all answers. Woohoo. Second game was the 5 ppl in one circle-lashing. Freaking pain. Hahhahs. I realised scouts can walk very fast if they wanted. Making both me and vivian almost fall/ get dragged on. Hahahahs. Funny.

The points were sweets, and omgosh, reallyvery unexpectedly, we won! : D The prize was a box of yummy toblerones. FP took one each le then the rest were passed to eagle. But heard from joven that they didnt managed to get any as the secthrees raped all the chocos. Hahhahahs.

Then we had a walk through the forest thing, past henderson waves and to mt faber park? I think the walk was one hour plusplus. Wasnt really tiring, just made me all sweaty and smelling like fish. Was supposed to go home, bathe then go meet zhabor de. But in the end, we happened to both be releases late from cca and yeah, postponed the meeting to sunday. Cant wait to see her. (:

Please ignore this, its just me crapping over something i saw.
damnyoulahsacbcthinkyousupershuaimehplayboyassshadesaremeant
forrealtrueguysnotguyslikeyouunderstandnoyoullneverunderstand
anythingreallydunknowwhatthefkingshithelliswrongwithyourheadmind
hearteverythingreallyhopethatyoullbesingleforeverandliveonwitha
brokenheartwithnobodyeverwantingtomenditforyou.
Okay i'm done. LOL.

Tagreplies.
megan: Linked dear. :D
pinyi: thanks pinyi, lol.
yeekay: love you too babe! XD
cherlin: yupps, sadden. jiaen told me bout it.

2009-02-26T18:05:00.002+08:00

IM GOING CHINA ! (:

Wahahahhah, so happy this may 24 - 4 june i'll be in china! Zhengzhou to be exact. Really dunno where the freak is that. 2b & 2a together go, woo hooo. But abit not fair lahs, sports ppl get to go taiwan. I wan go taiwan shop shop shop, eat fried chicken. Hahhaahhs. Hope can choose bunkmates, hehehhs. Then can play daidi, bridge, woohooooo. Just realised bridge really very fun. Hehehhhs.

Has been raining these few days, but my heart has healedhealedhealed ever since last last sunday? Church had a talkshow named True Love Waits. Really make me understand alot alot of things, and also realised that i've been very stooooooopid. Hahahs, relationships at this age only has two results :

One, get married. Which is like, 1 in a 100 kinda thing.

Two, breakup. Which happens mostmostmostmost of the time.

So yeah, why give yourself unnecessary brokeness and rejection. I know God has planned the guy for me, for my life. So all i have to do is be a good girl and wait, and i know i'll meet my true love. This really made me wake up. Yeah so really give thanks to God. [:

And i thought mrjonathan was gonna leave us. That cheat-my-feelings-er. Lol, so happy we got mrjon back. The new NIE teacher's like, taking us as if we were primary school kids. Keep " If you all still dun keep quiet, you all will face the consequences. " which is just simply standing for fiveminutes. Super diao-ded. Hahahas, mrjon very patient with us and he's like smileyboy, always smiling. Abit scary sometimes though. LOL.

Stayed back on monday to watch bball match with claudia, and study chinese at same time. Hoohoo. Hengheng got claudia study with me, ornot i think i sure flunk the whole thing lerhs. Hahahs. We studied for around about 2 hours i think, then went canteen to grab a bite. Then when to play pool in TEN. Hahahs. I faxian my pool skills kanasai. Played against kenneth, die like shit. Hahahahs. Then when to watch bball match. Quite high lahs. But sadsadsad, first time i know of a match that AHS lost. To dunman sec. Hais, bdivision de summore. Hais.

Went with daphne to Class Leader's Training for Lisa&Gracia on wednesday. Lol, mryeow says he's risking his job by asking us into Creativity Room. Hahahahs. Its supposed to be outabounds to students. So ask us, dun leave any traces that students have been here before. Wahhahas, damn funnny. Jiawen, jiayi & pinyi i rmb were there too. LOL. Pinyi kept laughing at whatever i did. Weird sia. I drank jiawen's chrysanthemun tea as well since she didnt wan it. Hehehs.

Arhhhhhhhhhs, tomorrow is scouts&guides excursion day. Damn. So scared. I think its like, a walk. Or more of, a hike. Just realised it after searching on google. Scouts are very nice guys, most of them. Some ppl walk past guides sister, give dao face. Grrrrhhh.

My favourite song for now is Mad - Ne-yo.

Go check it out yourself, i lazy upload. Hahahs.

TAGREPLIES(:
yeeling: you crazycrazy siaozhabor.
sue: yo sis.
amira: still dare say, imy truckloads.
claudia: hahahahs. you arhs. tsktsk.
peggy: how to? we same class lehhs. LOL
jermaine: hihi.
andrew: okay. must be you kena msn virus.
sue: happyvday(belated). :D
nizam: Yes i will! LOL. So enthu.
nicola: No probs gal.
pinyi: yo, no prob. hahahs. sounds weird.

2009-02-13T22:23:00.001+08:00

HAPPY PRE-VALENTINE'S DAY!

Hahahahs, im so happy. I got two roses this year. One from mydearchuajiaying & another from my patrol senior. Yeah, i know im pathetic. No have from guy. Hahahs. Had guides today and it was bioth fun and tiring, very tiring. Hahhahs, sorry for this super short post, but i just wanted to show off that i've got roses! :D

2009-02-02T19:26:00.009+08:00

Tell me why it's so hard to forget.
Don't remind me, I'm not over it.
Tell me why I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

&' Whats wrong with me. I really dont know why, even after how much you've hurt me. I still cant seem to let you go. '

28th Jan 2009 [ CNY celebration ]
Went to school in my new brown look-like twopiece but is one-piece top and skinnies. Much more fun than i expected, only the performance was boring. hahahs.

TOTAL OWNAGE MAN!
Twobeee got numberonenumberone!

Am sososo proud of everyone who helped out in doing the noticeboard. We only knew that we won an award, but all thought we got third. But who knew? we rockrockrock. I really love twobeeee`09.

After school, andy, lili, yuyang& yiyang[1d`08] came to my house to play mahjonggg! But since we're good kids, and money-less ones, we didnt play with money. Andy kapoked alot of my psp games, and yiyang almost kapoked my fat hamster named boyboy. and yes, there's a girlgirl. But dunno why, no have babybaby. LOL. Turns out yiyang can play mahjong quite well.

30th Jan ( Friday! )
Yes, this part would be about guides activity. :D

First we did the making of useful item thing. Me and wenjing made a whiteboard/notepad. Looks very class because of the red ribbon used. Hahahs. Then we presented about it, then did modules. Which was going up to talk about the topic the sseniors gave us. I was asked how to be thrifty. Yeah, then i just thought of whatever i read in the handbook and blahblahhed on. Hope i did fine !(: * crosses fingers *

Then we had pt. As expected, we were supposed to start from 60 then downwards. First set was okay, but of course super tiring. Second set when we're doing pumping, i didnt know my knees were slipping across the concrete floor, insted of on the poncho. Yeah, so it resulted in having both of my knees badly scraped/grazed?. LOL. Now i've got bandages on my knees. After guides act de following days, my stomach was suansuansuan for quite a few days. :X

I remember last thursday or friday when we had the spotcheck, i remember:

林老师： “欣敏，你的裙子太短了。”
我： “那里会啦老师，我这么乖。”
林老师： “哪我叫多一个老师来判断吧。”
-林老师带着蔡老师走过来-
蔡老师： “小妹妹啊，你的裙子短了一点点，得买新的了。”

Once they walked away, i started LOL-ing like nobody business. Not sure why. Hahahs.
Stopping here already. I go continue on my history revsion. Byeeeee. (:

TAGREPLIES!

cherlin: im so sorry i so long still haven return you. return you asap! XD

crystal: we're fated to! hahahs, lame;diaoded.

valerie: your selfproclaimed me to be lesbian to you. hahahs, i just love all my guides sisters can? doesnt mean im les right? LOL. later one day i really molest you then you shout. hahahas.

hannah: BIANG! lol. im deaddeaddeaded-deaddified!

yeeling: Relax my dear, i know i mean alot to you lahhhs! link u already.

sue: yo sister, i dun wan link you lehs.

amira: relinked babe. still dare say hor you. imissyoulike, as much as i miss him, hahahahahahahs. you dunno what happend i think.

2009-01-23T20:30:00.002+08:00

HAPPYBELATED BIRTHDAY DARREN!
I really dont understand why, hahahs.

Finally the secones have arrived! Was really very excited. Seems like wenjing's newyear resolution have not come true. Hahahs. She wrote on the orange note saying, " I want two secones only " So guess what, flowerpecker's having three secones ! :D

Three cute, totally different character-ed juniors. They are April, Rebecca & Vivian.
April's mixed blood, british&chinese, so she's super chio. She's rather disciplined and friendly. Rebecca's daring and outgoing. But she's abit too easy with her seniors. But who knows, its just their first training. Vivian's quiet. So i dunno much bout her. Hahahs.

I want to go play maple p-server now. Hahahs, bye. :D

2009-01-21T20:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEBORAH !
Omgosh, i miss you babe.

2009-01-19T16:49:00.003+08:00

Eheheh, been super lazy. Dun wan post. Home alone now so post bahhs. Oh yahs, everyone listen up! Please hack care all the funny urls my MSN has been sending everyone. My account kena virus, and i seriously dun wana remake an account. Oh yes,

HAPPY[V.]BELATEDBIRTHDAY YEEKAY DARLING!
Im so sorry i wasnt able to be there when everyone sang brithday song for you. D:

Hahahs, just realised valerie learns Aikido! -COOL MAN! Hahahs, school has been really fun, with minimal homework. Really dunno why guys can do the malaisiyah accent so well. i need to zaijiezaili. Hahahhaahahs. Only twob ppl will understand that. LOL. Wahhhhahs, so happpy. Guides was supposedly the first girl-cca to max the quota! :D Omg, we rock we rock we rock. I guess i should post about last friday. Hoyhoy, fun!

Guides<3 Friday, 16th Jan 2009

I only realised that i forgot to bring dark-coloured shirt when i was changing to my guides tee. How dumb am i. Then i started going all crazy, asking every guides secthree i saw, if they had brought extra dark-coloured tee. And wooohooo! Cherlin brought extra. :D

Firstly, we tied squarelashes at the 1perserverence classroom. Oh yahs, how is the school suppose to expect us to be able to remember the locations of the secone classrooms! When the senior ask us to go 1 perseverence, we were like, ohmegosh where is it which floor. Hahs. Then we learned to tied ladder ! Super cool lahhhs. We could like when in the forest and unknowingly have a piece of longlong strong rope, can throw over a tree de branch and then with other strong wood, make a ladder! or a swing even! (: then it was water-games! Specker! Muahahahahhs.

Firstly we went to the station where we played INDIAN POKER! Hahahs. Without lookin at the card we got, we have to paste it on our foreheads. So its like, u dunno ur own card but know everyone else's. Hahahs. Then try sabo here sabo there, the person with the card with the smalled points, gets splashed dirtyleaf water. Wooohoo! And maggie got splashed twice, out of three rounds. LOL. Oh yahs, when wenjing got splashed, i rmb what happened. It was like,:

*SPLASHES DIRTYLEAF+TWIGS-WATER ON WENJING*
cecilia ma'am: wenjing, did u wax ur hair?
wenjing: LOL? NO! Hahahahs. *trys to make hair look nicer*

Her hair was seriously look like hard,waxed hair after gettin splashed. Roflolmao. Then at our next staion, we played BANGBANGCHUCKYCHUCKY! like, bang bang chucky chucky WOOO! Hard to explain lahhs. Lols. But i only got splashed once! I rock i rock. [: then we went umbrella area to play this memorygame. hahahs, only remembered like, 8/20 stuffs. Hahs. Last station, What's My Name? This station Specker went back to Sparrow&Flowerpecker. Behind each side of the poncho, we'll quietly put one person from our patrol infront then when the poncho comes down, we have to shout the full name of the person on the other side. Hahahs, also, i did very well in this game. Go denise! :D

After all the stations, we formed back to our usual combined patrols, meaning PECKXORA's back together! Lol, and we played captain's ball! I guess we quite of owned! Go team, go team. Fun when over already, we sectwos had dialogue session. Contents shall not be revealed. Hahahs. And of course, i'll certainly post about yfc training the next day. Omg, warrior! :D

Saturday 17th Jan 2009 [YFC Training]

I say, red-collars are biased man. When i was a year one, they didnt even allow us to have a feel of the gas-powered control-line planes ever! And on the 2nd trainin of the new batch of secones, they got it. Like, whattt. But who cares, i dun intend on staying in C/L anyway. XD As usual, jiale would always have some kind of appointment to go to and pangseh us. Aiyooo.

Slacked, flew a few times, chatted, teached yearones theory, then gossiped. LOL. Then suddenly, junkun did the best thing in the world. He asked who wanted to go (meaning, transfer) to R/C ! I've waited for this for more than a year. Being a yeartwo is slack. Hahahs. And yeah, end of the day i just want to say, i've been transferred to R/C ! Wooohoooo. :D

Off to relink, link, tag ppl. Bye love! [:

2009-01-07T12:43:00.004+08:00

Weird to find me still awake at this time. Hahahahs. I have decided to post until 12 am. :D

This morning, woke up, bathed and was gonna go out to school on my own at 6.30am, then mum came out and said that she was going to send me to school. Like, bwahahahahs. Reached school around 7am, and yeah went to class. Waitwaitwait, gotta do something.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUANGJUNNN! (:
It's 12am sharp when i typed these words. :D

Okay, back to my post. Today, the weird morning song couldnt be heard, but we still went down. As usual, our class were one of the lasts to be sitted. Hahahahs. I got the wrong History teacher :X I always thought it was gonna be the Mr Yow ( onea calls him mickeymouse you know? ) , but in the end, its the NCC 'cher Mr Yeow. Hahahs, the five NCC guys in 2b are so dead lahs. Hehehs, today as expected, we had a relief science teacher. He's like, 21 years old? Alumni of AHS too. Not bad-looking too, ha ha. Was wondering which Mr Lim we were having for PE. Thought it was mumu jiaolian from last year, in the end it isnt. Bahh. Circuit running was easy. Push-up is kinda easy, ranger & the hophop thing is alien to me, and i chose crunches over sit-ups. Finished my math questions during recess and what luck, got called up to the whiteboard during math lesson. Surprisingly, i was able to remember most of the malay words cikgu mentioned. Hoohoo.

After school, wanted to go tm with christine or qingyun but they're both not free. Couldnt find any nice present, in the end decided to get him comics as present. Yeah, reached home,bathed and fell into deep afternoon nap/sleep from 3pm-8pm? Hahahs. Yeah, thats about all.

tuesday
Dont rmb what happened at school that day. LOL. Just remember that after school, reached home, bathed and after doing homework, went whitesands with mum and dad. Finally bought my own calculator, haha. Got the purple ring file, plastic sheets too. After that, we realised that ah yee, ( mum's sister ) was helping out at one of the booths. She gave me durian cookies and snacks that costed around 50dollars plus, for free. She's super nice lahs. (: Wanted to get Mac's icecream but dad recommended that i try the My Little Icecream Shop one's instead. Mum and Dad got the oohtwins , [ two small cones with small scoop of icecream ] and dad lemme get one yoomama [ one small cone with two small scoops of icecream ] :D Was really yummy. Hahahs, better go to bed already now, later tmr cant get up then i die. C:

TAGREPLIES[:
Merry christmas to all who wished me previously. (:
yeekay: helloh babe. :D
darren: Relinked. (:
jovinajiaqi: Imy dear! <3

2009-01-05T20:04:00.003+08:00

Seconddayofschool 5 Jan 2009

Went to school today by myself, and surprisingly, i didnt wake up later than 5.40am. Hoohoo. Took bus & train and reached school at 6.50plus i think. Cant believe i was actually able to wake up cos i slept at 2am the last night. Hais, was chiong redoing my pythagoras theorem thingy, dunno for what sia. Only need pass up on tuesday. In the end, i didnt have time to do my yuedubaogao.

Ms Lim insisted on me passing up by the end of the day ornot, DETENTIONNNNNNN. Like, ohmygoddd. I dun wan get detention, i've never gotten detention! So after the dedication thing, ha ha ha, i wan talk about the dedication ceremony. LOL. I sat beside claudia and throughout half of the ceremony, i was asleep. Hahahahs, it was because of the constant translating that got my mind confused and eventually, into hibernation mode. Cant blame me right? Lol. Oh yahs, Ms Lim did change our seating arrangements, all into pairs. Im at the 4th row from the front with yeeling ( she's hypersuper nice ! ), behind guangjun&wenjing, infront of chawit&[iforgothisname]. Aiyooooo. Andandand, in the end i stayed back in class for around 45minutes to finish my yuedobaogao. When i was staying back, there was shunkai,chawit,zhenyu and nicholas. The three from my class got punished by Ms Lim to copy from the ahma book i think. Nicholas was just talking sick with them. Like damn disgusting.

So all in all, the second day of school was not very good. D: Then lets talk about what happened last saturday! The day before my sister's birthday.

3 Jan 2009 Saturday

The day SYFC finally has training again, after two whole months of holiday. Woohoooo. Met up with Nut in the morning and as expected, we spent the whole day in the theatrette. The briefing of the new secones took like super long. I would be like, -O- if nut&yiyang wasnt there to talk to me. Darn jiale chose to go for his prefect thing. Supposedly if he didnt go that particular activity, he wont be able to run for head councillor of his school. Like, ha ha ha ha. Ohmytiann, i miss the cafe's seaweed chicken super much. Hahahahs.

After YFC, me, nut & yiyang took 86 to AMK Hub. We went to watch Bedtime Stories. It was roflolmao funny. Meaningful too. (:

&&` it started raining gumballs. C:

2009-01-04T23:55:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAPHNE!

My younger sister, Daphne has finally reached a two-digit age, woohooo ! (: Wishing you all the best in this year and the years to come. Your birthday was really the most special one i've ever seen, having homemade kuih lapis as your birthday cake. Hope you enjoyed your birthday as much as we did celebrating it for you. Take good care of the doodoo tortoise softtoy me & your ah kor gave you k? And also the lovey princess tiara dad&mom got for you. :D

2008-12-13T00:42:00.001+08:00

Hahahs. Finally got the chance to post again. (:

Wahs, found out about so many things, caused so many changes in me. I cant believe I was like so naive. Thinking that he'll ..... Hahahhs, I only have myself to blame, should have listened to Qingyunnnnnnn. I went to sleep overnight at my grandma's house for quite a few days, then decided to return home cos I havent even touched my homework. Hais, im a lazy pigg. My brother thought of a new nickname for me! (: But im so not gonna post it. I just have to say it has something to do with salted fish. Lol.

Ayes, forgot which website to go to do my YFC assignment. Need ppl to help me do the dunno what survey thing for SANA course. And I really dunno what online assignments I have for school. "Hardcopy" homework i only know got chinese homework. LOL! Just saw my big name in Claudia's post. Claudia Lim Jia Min, as if you dunno im a super blur sotong, easily believe my brother one. Hahahs, nvm. As long as we can go watch twilight can liaos. (: Call me k ? then we settle on which day to go watch ~~our~~ my dear edward cullen. :D [ He's mine! ]

Ohmytiannnn, I miss you hannnah chonggg. Superbangmate can you come back earlier? Imissyou like superomg muchhhh. I agree with aaron, you're gonna freeze if you dun do something. Hahahs. With you gone, i got absolutely no one to chat with. D: Come back asap! (:

Just chatted with jiaying! My dear patrolmate from annual camp'08. (: She's like super sweet lahs. Hahs, watching a korean horror movie now. Half watching actually. Its called Roommates. Not scary de lahs.

Told Qingyun im over it lerhs, but i know im not. I cant possibly be. I will never be. D: My brother told me that there was a night when i was crying in my sleep, talking too. He told me that i was actually pleading, more of begging, saying 'dont leave me' .. Only my best friends know what happened. I really thought i got over it, but i realised im not.

tagreplies

claudia: too bad, i wan u this friend lehs. who tell u to be such a super good fren. (: Hahahhs.
afiqah: thanks my dear, imy lahs.
dacia: u too k love? (:
jiaying: aiyah, i took super long to get the paint off. yesyes, ur body painting art rocks lahs. but mine better. (:
pris: I never died! Wahahs.
nicola: lol. thanks for the random tag.
cherlin: Wahahs, we rock! :D
annabella: call me lahs, jio me! (: buddy hoagies is really superbb. :D
valerie: Okayyy! (:
retardz: u this lame chicken. make me so blurr on msn. ty for ur umbrella! (:
darren: you are zilian lahs. just admit it. hahahs.
qingyun: told you de reason liao! omg, ily lehs yunnn.
annabella: ouchhhhh. lol.

/edit
Sorry for not updating always. My home de internet's down since november, so i can only update whenever im at my aunt's house. My phone too, the line got cut off. So i cant sms/call out, but can receive smses/calls. So, pleaseplease ppl, call and ask me out k? I'll really appreciate it. :D

2008-11-06T18:47:00.006+08:00

OMG. My blog's like, super dead.
So sorry for the emofreak post that was there for so so long.
Didnt know what I was doing lahhs. Now, I think I should just do what I see everyone's doing. Leave short messages for everyone. (:

♥

hannah : SUPERBANGMATE!<3 Holy cheese and crackers! Cake mania's fun okay. I love going out with you, my dear coffee&tea#1! Im gonna miss you loadsloads! D:

jiaying : COFFEE&TEA#2! Hahahahs. Lets go for food spree one day together k? Eighteen chef-ing with you around is always so so fun. (:

claudia : COFFEE&TEA#3! Wahahahah. Mahjonging with you is imbbbbaaaa fun lahhs. I think cos of you right, my homec & science practical become better. Wooohoo, rocking partner man! :D

evangeline : Evanvan! Wahahahas. The way tang irritate you is super funny sia. Thanks for sending me songs all the time and being such a great guides sister ! (:

janice : Wow. You left great memories in me, (whineingstuffs) church stuffs, and yeah, history lessons are made less boring with your singing. (:

berlinda : Dont really know you well, but thanks for being such a nicenice classmate. (:

deborah : OMG, im gonna miss you like, zomgggg. Thanks for opening up more after sitting next to selina ( that siaokia ) for one whole semester. And you rock as a guides sister. (:

jiayi : Hahahahs. Fun sitting mrt home with you! Gonna miss you and your tuckingout of shirt all the time. LOL!

huishi : Thanks for always being so omg cute! All the best for SJAB. (:

joohwee : Wakakakaka. Thanks for tolerating with me for so long. You're really alot of fun to talk to. All the best!

chloe : Hahahs, kenzie. LOL. PSPS!

natalie : LOL! Thanks for always being so mean to me in 1st sem, but yeah, albert einstein is a nice person. Hahahs.

jingyi : You rock for beating BC! Continue owning in HCL k? (:

rachel : omgomgomg, all those times of molesting.... hahahahs. Thanks for bein such a great guides sister.

nicola : Thank you so much for all the randoommm taggs! Smilesmile k? :D

yingling : You're actl a very nice person okay! Thanks for the hug on the last day of school! Continue rocking! [Your hairstyle super nice!]

sherilyn : Hahahahs. Thanks for annoyin ET ! He sucks i know. XD

vivian : Hahahahs. Paper-macheing with you is funfunfun. Hahahhs. Thanks for being so nice and non-crying ! :D All the best.

selina : Thanks for being such a great friend during the 1st sem! And of cos, ownng kenzie in badmnton! :D Jiayou in council & guides k? You have great potential! (:

elwin : Hahhahahs. Thanks for being my kor for quite a while. Hahahs. Must jiayou in NCC k? Become more muscular!

baichuan : Thanks for destroying the ceiling ! Hahahahahas. You and rachel arh, super complicated. Hahahahs.

desmond : LOL! Delta rocked cos of you lahs. Thanks for waking me up with chngkiat whenever i fell asleepp.. Like, always. Hahahahs.

yuyang : Omg, thanks for helping me carry the guides cookies up to class. You're such a nice guy! (:

andrew : Thanks for your lame tags and talks. Hahahah. You're a better IT rep than aaron, that crazyretard. (:

kenzie : Thanks for owning me in badminton -.- But hahah, selina owned you! Wakakaka.

guangjun : Hahahs. Thanks for the mahjong game! Hahahs. You'll get bettter k? Next time change a chair. Hahahahas. (:

yueren : You ass, you totally owned in mahjong lahhhs. I teach you one lehhs! (: Hahahahs. Paiseh, i can imagine you in a bikini. Muahahahs.

joven : Retarded scout brother. Never buy cookies from me. Hahahahs. Nevermind, happpy belated birthday! (:

aaron : Hahhahs. I cant believe it, you pissed me off at badminton. Jiayou in obsesing in psp k? Hahahs, NCC too.

chngkiat : You nice person! Buy cookies from me. Hahahas. Thanks for the scare-wakeups! LOL. But its really scary lahhs. :X

rongwei : Hahahs. Its fun scolding you. LOL. Happy belated birthday! (:

dave : Thanks for lettin me annoy you with crap smses! Hahahs. You're the nicest scout brother out of the three! LOL.

eugenetan : Thanks for training with me on my bro's private server! Hahahs. You lameshit guy, always like to disturb me. Hahahs, i still cant believe you donated.

eugenetang : TANGTANG!(: Hahahs, power of brainiac! Fellow 987effehm fan man! You rock lahhhs. :D

gerald : Hahahhs. You damn funny.. Always like to scold councillors. LOL.

♥

Ahhh, im gonna miss all of you! Thank you benloke for chatting with me! " I LOVE NUMBERSEVEN! " Hahahs, albertang you damn funny.

TAGREPLIES!

selina: aiyoooo, you crazy over blogskin changgin lahhs.
hannah: Heyoohs superbangmate! Hahahs, love your bangggs!
elvy: heyhey, i miss you lahhs. hahahhas. roommate! (:
chengxi: Yes, i see your tag. Hahahahas.
annabella: Dun care bout my prev post! I siao one. LOL.
ritchie: Like, WOW, ritchie's BLOGGGGING. Wahahahs.
wenjing: hello.
nat: YO! Hahahhas.
retardz: helloh, you're aaron right? i so long still duno.
jiaying: Hi my darling! Hahahahs.
ET: Freak you.. Ima gonna be taller than you in sec4. Let's bet.
nic: HELLLOH!!!
andrew: Hahahahahs. Tan has always been evil. I gona miss you too.(:
mandy: MandyDARRRR! IMY LAHS. Internet cutt offf!
benjamin: you reek of chocolate! XD msning with you is fun. (:
cherlin: Yesyes, how cool ! :D
jojo: YOOYOYO! TAN is my surname! (:
albert: heylohhhhh.
claudia: Hahhahahas. I take more than one hour. (:

2008-09-07T19:39:00.002+08:00

I dont care anymore.
There's better things for me to worry about.
Things that are more important than you.
Im giving up on all of these.
Im giving up on you.

2008-09-06T01:58:00.002+08:00

Dont feel like posting at all. But since im at my aunt's house again, why not.

Tuesday after guides was totally super-fied.
Me, Jiaying, Selina, Jiawen, Yunjin, Valerie & YeeKay went to Eighteen Chefs after guides for lunch. And I dont know if we were unlucky or lucky. Eighteen Chefs was being filmed that day for a chinese programme called Xing Qi Er Te Xie or something like that. Yeah, and we, the 7 secone guides were included and as a reward, we each get a free student meal during the next Monday. Hahs. The show's supposedly on tv at the end of this month. I just hope that day never comes. Dont want to see myself on teeeveee..

Yupps. The baked rice was really good and so was the choco ice-cream. After the fuffilling lunch, we went to Whitesands to take neoprints . I paid 6dollars for the 8dollar machine that we took. Im kinda used to paying for neoprints. It has always been like that. They may not be the best neoprint designers on earth, but the neoprints had the bondness of us secone guides in it. Yeah, one of the best neoprints I ever took .

I have only one word to describe Thursday's outing. Loved .

Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you.

TAGREPLIES !

selina: Its up to you whether to like his face.
Hannah: Okay. It was damn freaking tiring. Hahs.
MANDY: Yesyes. Mr Nicholas Tan. Hahahs. You admitted that he's handsome.
CLAUDIA: Yes, HAH. I updated.
jiaying: Lol? Been waiting long ?
Darren: Hey.
anaaa: Yeps. LOL.
christine: Thanks life-saver !
Elvy: Kk.
selina: I dont have that much time. Lol.
nicola: Okay.
stella: Okay.

2008-08-31T12:03:00.001+08:00

Ohmygod. I cant believe how long I havent posted. Shit crap man.

Really sorry for not responding to any of your tags! My house's computer no internet. Yeah, so Im like, cut off from blog and msn-ing. Alot of things have happened in the time since I last posted, and I thought that I should post one super long post to sort-of compensate you ppl. But I dunno lahs. Alot of the stuffs that happened, I either have really forgotten them, or chose to forget them. Nevermind, I'll just post about some random stuffs.

Wednesday 27th August

Only thing I remembered is the omg-super basketball match between Anglican High n Unity Sec! Planned to go there with Mandy de. In the end, 1D ppl, Yi Yang, Shawn and Jun Sheng came with us. When we reached Toa Payoh Mrt Station, we went to Cheers with another bunch of AHS-ians and scrambled for the drinks and chips. Then we girls, went off following the guys. They supposedly knew how to walk to the sports hall. Lol. Yeah, luckily they did.

When we reached there, it was the C'div girls competing. Before we knew it, it was the guys' match! Wahahahs. Damn cool sia. David and Peter Soo ( twins man! ) happened to be in the basketball team from Unity Sec. They're two guys from my church. David wasnt playing cos his leg was fractured. Supposedly, someone pounced on him. ( Must be some girl ! ) Peter's defense was quite well. But Anglican's much better man! Hahahahas. We won! Oleh ! ( For dunno how long. )

Thursday 28th August

Supposedly to get our report cards back today, but mdm norliza didnt come to school. Haiyahhs. I think it was this day that we got to know our english marks. The happiest day of my life. Lol. Actually it wasnt really fun lahs. The moment that Ms Farah picked up the marks list, I already saw my marks. Kill-joy. Only have myself to blame. Lame. But, I was still really surprised that she got me a cute lil bag as a present. First time in my life I gotten first in class for a subject. Wahhs. The joy in my heart couldnt be described. Hahs. I kinda decided to give the bag to my sister. Not sure why though, despite of how much I liked it that is. Just felt like there was a lil denise telling me to be a nice sister and give it to her. (:

Friday 29th August

Had the stupid jumpjump thingy. So had to go school at 7am i think. I took mrt train and coincedentally met christine and hazel on the train, so we decided to be lazy and take a taxi up the hill. The fare was $3.30. Each of us had to pay only $1.10, hahahahs.

Reached school at 7am sharp. Hahahahs. This time to Tampines Safra, I had a sitting partner, Selina Wong Zhi Ying. Simply cos Hannah chose to sit with c&t#2 . Yeah, but who cares. At least I had some company. We reached Tampines Safra and all us AHS-ians were split into two row[ guys/girls ] . We were at the B5 sector thing. Me , Selina , Jiaying and Hannah was some sort of beside Desmond, Joven and Guang Jun. They made the time there more fun. Hahahs. Cos Selina was always making fun of Joven & GJ. Then the stupid Desmond insisted that Im the worse dog that he has. Yeahyeah. I became his dog simply cos he threw a note to me, then I read it. The retarded note said: You are now my dog. Like, ohehmgeee.

We had two jumpjump times. The first time was a trial. So everyone of us was just anyhow jumping. I kinda had to stop every once in a while cos my rope either got stuck in the stupid synthetic grass that was frickin hard, or cos my rope hit the rope of a victorian behind me. The victorian huh, keep moving backwards, closer to us Anglicans. Oh yeahs. Our rows had to face each other. So that we could have more space. Then when we had to really do the 3min skipping, I realised that skipping is actually quite tiring. Most of us after jumping for 1min, was already panting whenever we stopped. Hahs. When around 2 minutes, everyone was like asking if we could stop already. Hahahahas.

It was around 9am when we were dismissed. Yahoohs man. I chose to go back by myself, not following the bus back to school. When I was on my way out of Tampines Safra, I realised that I didnt know how to get out of Tampines at all. As in like, which bus to take, where to take. Hahahahs. Really was like a blurr sotong at that point of time. Good thing Desmond and Joven was there. They gave me directions and I was soon on my way home. I went home to bathe and change before going off to Whitesands to meet Christine and Mandy. Hahahs. Got them to help me buy chocolate ice blended. I think we took bus to meridian. Or was it a cab. Haiyahs. My memory's failing me. Does it even matter?

Me & Mandy went into Meridian while Christine waited for Mian You & Anna. But it was like 2 minutes then they came running in. Hugged both of them cos yeah, its been quite a while since we last met. Then we went around looking for teachers ! First, we saw Mr Wong i think. Then we saw Mrs Stefanie Lee at the HOD. But she was kinda busy so she asked us to come back later. Then, we ran off to the Staff Common Room to look for other teachers. Mr Yip greeted us and soon we were running around in the Staff Room, looking for teachers who havent left for the cruise. When we're about to leave, we saw Ms Rachel Yau ! She's still as pretty as ever ! Lol. But we couldnt talk cos she had to rush for the bus.

We met so many people there ! Got Yi Tian, Justin, Braxton, Hilman, Afiq, Khidir, Gina, Amalina , Brenda and alotalot other people ! The conversation Anna had with Mr Nicholas Tan was super funny. Ms Eunice Kang was part of it too.

[ Anna & Mr Tan were quarreling ]
Ms Kang: Wah. Anna, you dont like him why still keep talking to him ?
Anna: Oh yah hor. I shall stop talkin to you.
Mr Tan: No, its a love-hate kinda relationship.
Anna: Yesh. Its the hate now.
Mr Tan: Wait till you see the love. [ Raises eyebrow ]
All ( Me, Christine, Anna & Ms Kang ) : EWWWWW !

Lollhs. Soon, the cat high guys came. Together, me, Christine, Anna, Justin, Darren, Daryln and Benloke went to ehub. Went walking around for awhile then went to Pastamania. But I kinda left them there, wasnt really feeling well. Shant elaborate. I guess I should just leave the day ending like that. (:

Saturday 30th August

I went to The Showcase with Qingyun. Before that, we ate at McDonald's and then walked around Whitesands. And like, ohehmgeeeee. I saw Kenzie Wan Geng Ci. I literally stood there shocked. Not sure why though, I think his Mom suddenly said " Hi " to me. So I just said " Hi, Hi Kenzie, Bye Kenzie " And moveddd on.

The Showcase was really fun. The performances and all. Very interesting lahhhs. :D Went home on bus 12 after that. Had a good chat with Qingyun. About our lives and stuffs. All in all, it was quite a super day.

&&` I hope things have changed for the better now.

TAGREPLIES!
stella: kk. will link you asap!
VALERIE: HELLOH! Sorry lahs. No time update. ;D
SUPERHANNAH: Yes Ma'am ! :D
annabella: Woots! I did ? (:
ItsUpToMe: WQ! Hahahs. So long never chat liaos. You seriously rocked man!
jiaying: Im not being emotional dear, Im just feeling emotional. Hahs.
joohwee: It doesnt seem dead. It is dead. Hahahs. Sorry !
Elmira: Dont be funny. Of course I rmb you ! Hahahs. You liked Darius! XD

2008-08-08T12:25:00.002+08:00

NDP Oh`eight. I cant use words to describe how proud I feel to be in a uniform group. Although I wasnt in the NDP contigent, I was very proud of all those who got in. You guys made today the best NDP celebrations I ever had. ( Picture from Claudia's blog : thbeginning.bs.com )

Olympics start today! 080808. One of Singapore's coolest years ever, where two important days come after each other. How cool man.

Thursday!
Found out my 2.4km timing during PE on wednesday ! Quite good lahs, 11.40min. (: Gotten back my math test the previous day I think. 26/30 ! Quite okay lahs. If only I wasnt so blind, I could have gotten full marks. Bleuks. Mdm Norliza sprung us a Pop Test, that was supposedly to be a class test. I found the test quite easy, no particularly hard questions or anything, especially after all the hints/clues Mdm Norliza gave us. Sad lahs. Joohwee didnt manage to finish the last question and was crying alot after that. Tried to cheer her up (:

Afterschool, went out with my brother, ritchie and lester. I wore my hotpink blouse, black skinnies and my beloved white jacket that costed 80bucks. LOL. Just remembered that my ipzone jacket is still camping at amira's house. Hahahs. Yeahs, when me and my brother left the house to go to e!hub, the skies were already very dark even though it was only 5plus. And the thunder that resounded was super threatening. We intended on taking bus to e!hub since it wasnt really far and we didnt have much money, but once we reached outdoors, we could feel droplets of rain falling, getting more and more every second. My brother didnt wan me to be soaked, plus ruin my jacket so we rushed into a cab. Luckily, we did. Cos once we got in the cab, BABOOM! A super heavy downpour started. Hahahs, lucky shit man. When we reached e!hub, ritchie was no where to be found and we ( me, my bro and lester ) had to wait for him until we realised that he was stuck at whitesands. He couldnt possible walk over cos of the thunderstorm, and the taxi stand was flooded with people. So we had to go fetch him, like, zzzzz.

Stupid ritchie ng zheng hao ! the taxi uncle asked if we were his bodyguards. lol. super funny lah the uncle, teasing ritchie about how tough NS was gonna be. Really cracked us up. Finally we were all at e!hub. They kept asking me to choose between the movies, 钱不够用2 & TheMummy. Then I kept askin them to choose. LOL. We decided on watching comedy and chose 钱不够用2. The movie really kept me laughing throughout the whole thing. Although funny, there were quite a number of heart-wrenching scenes too. The movie really knew how to toy with our emotions. Mostly having sad then comical scenes. So most of the time I ended up laughing while crying. Weird lahs. I think I didnt really cry because of the story, but the grandmother being similar to my late grandfather. I was really reminded of him as I watched how the children treated their mother ( grandmother ) , I was wondering if I had been a good grand-daughter when my grandfather was still with us. T-T

After the movie, the rain had stopped and it was around 9pm. The guys sent me home after we had dinner at Central. Oh yahs. My brother and Ritchie are going to learn Muay Thai ( Thai Boxing ) ! They wouldnt allow me to learn saying that muay thai really isnt for girls. I mean like, i find it super cool lahs. if i find muay thai 'not for me', i wouldnt have learnt taekwondoe back in primary school. Speaking bout taekwondoe, i really hope to be able to go back to the federation asap. I think my schedules would really be hectic if i join back but who cares, i dont want to give up something i have been pursuing for almost 3 years. My dad hopes his girl would be able to defend herself too aite ! (:

Friday!
Woke up at 5.20am today, to make sure my guides uniform is neat, and of course, to tie braids! I spend the previous night till 1am searching the net for ways to tie my braids nicer. Really need to improve my braiding skills. :X

Reached school at 6.40am. Unlike all the other sortof, normal ppl who came in red-tee and white bottom, I was in my beloved guides uniform! Im glad that we had to wear guides uniform. Cos i dun have any red tee. Hahahs. Okay, there was quite alot of waiting, so lets skip all the boring waiting parts! But the UG marching to the parade square was superb! I was anticipating for the march-off, and just when that part came, I had to run off to prepare for the tree-planting ceremony. I had to pass a SHO-VELL ( xD ) to jia-en at the tree-planting ceremony, then line the pavement for the VIPs to walk. Then when they had refreshments, we serve! Had quite alot of fun refilling the drinks and stuffs. But the food was making me hungry. Hahahs. Didnt eat breakfast mahhs. Then summore sleep so little. Haiyohhs.

After all the VIPs left, guides were allowed to eat! Woohoohs! I ate 1 and a half plate of beehoon. And was quite full after that. Hahahs. The kuih looked yummy but tasted weird as it was full of sticky-ness. Yeah, after eating we packed up the chairs and tables and went to fall in at d&t area. Supposedly, our service was very good and all the teachers say we did a very good job. (:

Wahhs, went home straight after dismissal. Reached home, showered, grabbed my brother's pillow and fell asleep on the sofa. Hahahhs. Woke up only at 6pm to play comp. Wahahahahs. Total slack man. Then only until now then I blog. Cos I didnt feel like bloggin before that. LOL.

And..
1A I LOVE YOU ! <3

&&` There's a beautiful side to every girl .

TAGREPLIES!
jiaying: Yahs. We give up our seats lerh still have to stand at the back of the hall. Like we got punished or something. zzz
selina: Of course lah! Guides lehh! :]
Benjamin[x: Thanks darlinngg! You too! Jiayou in ur passion for vball k?
Qingyun: XIAOGINNA! Breakaway is nice okay! Granted ur wish with a super long post can? :]
DNAndrew: I think the whole school saw. x)
jovinajiaqi: No lahs. You update more lorhhs ! (:
VALERIE: Heyhey ! Its a shovelllll. Hahhas. Lame.

2008-08-05T22:57:00.000+08:00

Supposed to be studying. LOL. but who cares. Im gonna post bout today first.

Secones are released at 1.40pm. yet, we had to go for some prize-giving ceremony that doesnt concern us. Haiyohs. Sit right smack at the fron row must sit properly, skirt pull nicely, hands put glam-ly. like, oh-me-gosh lahhs. I kept wanting to fall asleep cos the ceremony was taking super long to even start. And teachers kept coming to our row there touchtouch us, ( i mean literally cos a `cher touched jiaying's legs. ) yeah, so super hard to secretly sleep. Then at the end, we the front row ppl had to give up our seats tot he vips for photo-taking. Then we all the front row peeps only can go to the back of the hall and stand there until they finish and dismiss us. They never even thank us for giving up our seats. So mean lah they.

After dismissal, a bunch of us ( people who wanted the class to be able to finish the notice board in time ), stayed back in class to help paint the notice board. At first alot of guys just stay in class, seat there and act boss. LOL. Still say what, they are the Ruling Class, and we, the people paintin, are the Working Class. Like, elle-ohhh-elle. Hahahs. That sounded weird. And rachel realised they were scammed. One of the paints they bought from 85market had mould. Disgusting lahs, then rachel still go dig out the mould. That was when the thing really started to smell. Oh yahs, desmond painted an 'L' on my arm. Then I ask him continue, and as I expected, he painted the word LOSER on my arm, in bright RED ink. Hahahs. We managed to save the nightsky! Woohoohs. Then me&eugenetang decided to blend the two skies together, using water! With the same method, we plus yuyang, managed to make the Star-thingys uber nice ! All this time, most of the guys were either downstairs playing soccer, or slacking in class. Dave helped make the S'pore Flyer nicer though. He's a nice guy after all. -SMILES

Wahahahahs. By the time the uncle came to lock the classroom doors, we had already finished painting everything. All we had left was to put up the merliontail's shells, the S'pore Flyer & The Little Men. Very proud of whatever was done ! Cos its really super nice. (:

Off to go study for chinese test ! Although there's not much time left until my sleeping time. Yeah, still. Wishing the best of luck to everyone for the two tests tomorrow! Jiayous !

2008-08-02T20:13:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNA!<3

Sorry for the late birthday post dedication. Didnt really have time. Hahahahas. I cant believe darren sent an sms to 987fm on ur birthday. The msg's quite sweet too. Miss you loads babe.

Friday!

Havent been postin in a while. Not sure why though. Hahahs. Yes! Finally a real class photo taken. On wednesday that is. Really didnt know what to bring for the fun shot. In the end I brought dingdong, my favourite soft toy from my favourite brother. Wonder where's the pictures Ms Farahdian took. Hmms.

BOTOX TEACHER ABSENT ! Wahahahs. The world's not gonna end anymore. Hahahs. Realised miss botox wasnt coming from 1c. First time ever since i entered ahs, i felt that friday is a good day. Wakakaks. Im so evil. XD

Had guides after school and we had foot drills first! Then we did emergency shelters! Together in our combined patrols that is. Without ppl from NDP contigent, there was only me, wenjing, clara and jia-en in peckxora. Supposedly, our emergency shelter was really good! But, yeah. I commited a great offence. Hahahs. I hammered one of the pegs so deeep in that it was stuck. :X Clara, jia-en, yingxuan and xiangrong tried so hard to pull it out to no avail. In the end, they had to pour water at the peg there, making the ground muddy. And both me and clara's hands became dirtyy, digging out all the mud covering the peg. Yixuan i/c said that its the first time in guides history that somethin like this happened x) After loads and loads of struggling, the peg finally bear to come out. WOOTS!

And throughout all of that, our lagginess caused us a total of 272 jumping jacks as punishment. LOL. So we were made to do 120 jumping jacks altogether, plus 50 catchstars. Our shouts managed to our punishment, luckily, ornot sure jump until next mornin :X but yeah, i guess taht really prepared me for more tiring stuff I had on saturday.

TODAY!

my first ever 2.4km run!

LOL. woke up at 6am, bathed and started thinking how to get to east coast. hahahs. but soon, my dad woke up and sent me there. sadly, selina had sc duty so i didnt have any running partner. reached there exactly at 7.30am, upon reaching, I caught sight of CSJ scoldin ppl. Scary lahhs. When the sec2 level run liaos, me , jiaying , vivian and claudia started doing stretches. We were literally doing zao cao lorhs. Hahahs. And Claudia invented two new ways of stretchin. Before we knew it, it was our turn to run already.

POBOHHHHH! and we were off! I started off half joggin half running. Just to give me a leap above one whole big group of girls. But yeah, those super fast one earlyearly chiong infront liaos. I was doin okay, until the turny thingy part there, around station 9-10. I started feelin pain at the side of my back so I slowed down to joggin speed, allowing quite a number of girls to overtake me. But yeah, upon seein the amount of girls infront of me and my goal: " Get into Top 50 ", I ignored the pain and started chionging like siao from station 12-13. Ended the run getting 39th position in level, 2nd place in 1A, and 3rd secone guide! Im contented already. :D

All I want is a simple friendship. Thats all. I guess its fate for me to never be able to be normal. To be just another girl. So that you can treat me just like any another girl. Whats wrong with me man? My mind tells me something repeatedly. My heart's telling me the opposite. I really dont know what to do.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes til' I touch the sky
I'll make a wish, take a chance
Make a change,and breakaway

2008-07-28T23:19:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANIEL!

Woots! Its my brother's birthday today! Hahahs. Not sure why im so happy though. LOL. I have to seriously update my blog. Its so friggin dead.

COOKIES FOR SALE! ( for ordering actually ) Everyone please order from me either a tin of chococream or chocomint cookies! I know there's alot of you cookie monsters out there and Im lookin for you! Hahahhs. I managed to get 3 more orders at tuition. And another 4 from YFC mates. And a few more from my lovely seniors! Cant wait to fill up the whole form man! But I know thats not gonna happen. LOL.

Homerun was fun. Lee Kuan Yew rocks! We were singin national songs composed by Dick Lee during the race. The what , " not lee kuan me, but lee kuan you! " LOL, lame. Our facils were very nice, even though we realised that we didnt save any chips for them at the end of the race. All the 5 of us were exhausted from the race and we made a new 10-word line!: We-Will-Never-Want-To-Go-To-Fort-Canning-Again! The fort canning station was seriously super demading, needing us to go all the way to the top and reach the sally port. We came in 4th position! I was quite sad at first, but in the end, who cares, as long as we had fun. (:

YFC training last saturday was boring. Cos both Jia Le & Nut didnt come. But me & yiyang managed to fly the control line! And I did my first solo! As in like, seriously the senior already let go of the handle liaos and I managed to go like, 5 rounds by myself! And the plane was like, freaking stable. Wahahahs. Made me feel so accomplish-ed.

2008-07-23T22:17:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAUDIA! <3

Loveyouuu Coffee&tea#3/Labpartner/Homecpartner! You're the coolest yet hyper-est girl I've ever met! I know we have our differences sometimes but I really hope we can be gurrlfriends for a longlong time.

(: